its STRONGER than DEATH


Saturday, January 27, 2007

*Dreams*--> I missed my flight! Have to wait 4 hrs. Daddy scolded me Stupid.Mummy scolded me irresponsible. Bestie's daddy scolded us irresponsible. *Sigh!

Mr Ng just scolded me! :(

GRRR! I miss Jiemei & Hi 5!!!

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Yesterday was UTTERLY Horrible. HONESTLY! I almost cried in the rain. Helpless & Lonely. I missed his presence. Trying my best not to. But still. *Sigh.

Going HONGKONG today! Hoping it's a good trip. Bestie planned it. So.. I don't think I wanna complain. Hmmm. Will shop like mad. Play like mad! (: Heehs. Heehs!

But my Jiemei & Zhaoqi is coming out this afternoon! Can't see them till CNY! That's what Jiemei said. *Sigh...RAH!!!

-Mel
-loves
Friday, January 26, 2007

*Dreams*--> Yay-ness! 1 day to Hongkong! (: Happy! (:
To my bestie, Don't worry kaes? We'll have fun! (: Yay-ness! Stay Happy!!
Work is alright. Left to half day's work tomorrow cos' I'm taking half day's leave. Hmmm. Work piled up on my table. BUSY DAY tomorrow I bet. (:


Thanks to Mr. Ng for lending me his phone! (: I appreciate it & I'll take GOOD CARE of it. Don't worry ok? Enjoy your bubbletea!

I was kind of sad SUDDENLY today. Thought alot about things. Thanks to Lynn for enlightening me! (: Heehs!

-Mel
-loves
Wednesday, January 24, 2007

*Dreams*--> I'm slacking during work! Tee-hees! Oh bother, its because I have absolutely nothing to do right now. Getting more used to work now. Being more familiar with the environment and the people here. My colleagues are nice and there ain't THAT much work to do right now. So, no complaints for now. My complaint dept can close down already! Haha. 2 days to Hongkong! Yay-ness. I can't wait cos' I'm treating this a holiday after my months/years of studying. Hahaha. Imagine that you are busy for a very long period of time, then you FINALLY have a holiday! You'll jump for joy right?

Going for mass shopping spree and sight-seeing! YAY! Heehs. Don't worry my dearest girlfriends, I won't leave you out! (:

I need a break...

"I feel so wiltful. I feel like all the wrongs are pointed to myself now. SORRY."

-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, January 23, 2007

*Dreams*--> I feel so tired. 3 days more to Hongkong. Goodness. Tummy having very bad cramps! HATE THIS! Ugh! Took half day off today. For that, I need to compensate my Friday afternoon to work. But its fine. I can wake up late! Hurrays! But still 2 days plus to work then HOLIDAYS!! Yay-ness.

I miss ya. SORRY.

-Mel (:
-loves
Monday, January 22, 2007

*Dreams*--> MONDAY blues!! *sigh* Me and my dearest penguin was talking about how much we miss PJ! *Goodness. Saw a J1 wearing PJ collar pin! I miss wearing my full uniform with my PJ collar pin & Council Badge! (: Lol. Those were the days man! Drank my favourite - honey water just now! I remembered drinking it often during Orientation! Honey Water was my remedy to being able to scream my lungs out! Heehs! Ah. Many misses!

Now working life is MUNDANE! I need to face up to reality. Working ain't that bad. It's just the routine lifestyle. Waking up early in the morning, travelling to NTU. SO FAR!!! Hahaha. But honestly, the school's not bad. But I already made my decision for my further studies!

Talked to my JIEMEI yesterday! He called me from army! How sweet. I miss him to the core! I screamed telling him that. I'm so happy he's doing fine. Just that his voice was getting rough! All the screaming and shouting! Not good! Tsk!

"I thought some time alone was what we really needed. You said this time would hurt more than it helped but I couldn't see it...."

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Went to watch FAST FOOD NATION with my family today. Totally gruesome. Totally gross but I felt the show was more of a learning experience. NOTE : Fast food Nation was the book that made me stop eating BEEF. Today that movie made me feel like never eating burgers again! I just felt like the movie was trying to epic many aspects of the human world.

What I think the movie is trying to tell the world:

1. COWS are not just animals born into this world to suffer and get tortured till they get killed and slaughtered for us to eat. Be humane!

2. There are many cruel and sadistic people in the world. We can't be naive to think everyone is nice. Because truely not everyone actually is.

3. People that sell their body are left with the last resorts. We shouldn't despise them. We should despise those who actually patronize them. Ugh!

4. People in this world would go to the extent of killing people as a means of money! How sinful! What is this world coming to?

Anyway. I suggest that you DONT go to see the movie because firstly you won't be able to stand the way they KILL COWS.

Ok. I wanto get rid of that thought! EWWW!!

-Mel
-loves
Friday, January 19, 2007

*Dreams*--> Hurray! It's the weekend! Hurray! However, I have to work tomorrow! *WHINES* Have to help out in a Seminar NTU is holding in Meritus. *sigh! Adapting better to working life. Think I'm enjoying it more and more cos' I think my colleagues are quite nice! NTU is a nice environment cos' its filled with teen spirit! SO.. GOOD WORKING ENVIRONMENT!

Going Hongkong next week -1 week? Too long? Well I'm on a research and development trip to check out all the nice attractions and gr8 shopping areas there. The trip is fully sponsored by - MY DAD! Lols. R&D my foot! (: But still, I'm going with bestie So its gonna be fun!

Met with s09 girls just now! (: As usual comical! FUN! FUN! I love dinners with them but I'm sorry I went off quite early! I'm working tomorrow! SIANS! Meet up often ks my love! And Kris' I forgot to get my card from you! OOPS!

Msg-ed with my Jiemei for awhile. I miss him man! Glad he's adapting to army well. At least there's no more worries for him. I just hope he's fine!

Thinking about my future. Will i make the right choices?

"I suddenly thought how wiltful I am. I can't stand the me to you right now.."

-Mel (:
-loves
Wednesday, January 17, 2007

*Dreams*--> BUSY BUSY Workaholic today! Work was interesting for the first time today cos' I handled admissions! Quite interesting process but very tedious! Hahaha, now you know why school clerks are fierce, you make their life tiring from the start, not their fault! Hahaha, ahem! Pioneers make a wise guess!

Lynn said that I have been mentioning the same old statement in my blog! I MISS PJ to the CORE! Get the emphasis? GOODNESS! I do! I also hope lynn gets well soon! I feel so bad for her! Take care my study buddy! (:

I still don't feel the transition. I feel STUCK in 2006. I need my LIFE! (: I felt like ever since J2. I feel LOST cos' I guess I was too engrossed with JC life. JC life is way too FUN anyways.

Have to addicted to KIMCHI since Prelims. It's truely an addiction can! From Saturday till today, I've been eating Kimchi everyday!! Hahaha. Yinghuey is guilty! Cos' she bought me Kimchi from KOREA! Authentic can? I LOVE IT cos' its way better that local ones! Hahaha. Yummy Yummy Yummy! (:

Specially thanks to Mr. Ng for being my complaint dept. For that, I'll treat him to bubbletea. What a lucky fellow! (: HAHAHA!

I should take poetry! AHEM. Christine I really should! AHEM!

-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, January 16, 2007

*Dreams*--> Sigh! Didn't go work today! Staying home to rest, hopefully I'll feel better about everything! But I just checked my emails from the Office. Seemed like my Boss had something for me to do in the office. But I guess it's okay. (: I can always do it tomorrow!

I feel the sky falling down on me. And the sea running dry. I feel like its time for me to say goodbye. Goodbye to thoughts held on by those memories. And not Goodbye to once someone I loved.

I should take poetry!

-Mel
-loves
Monday, January 15, 2007

*Dreams*--> I'm bored. Currently at work. Have cravin' for Fish&co. RIGHT! When is lunch gonna come! I want my lunch!! I miss PJC! GOODNESS!!

-Mel
-loves
Sunday, January 14, 2007

*Dreams*--> Sunday! Means there's work tomorrow! This reminds me of my study days when Sunday was my only REST DAY! Hahaha. But school seems more interesting than work nonetheless. I miss college life! Sick of hearing that line? TOO BAD. Hahaha.

Hmm. Wonder how long I'm able to work. I am getting used to it. But all i wish is for things to get better! *prays* Heehs. I'm in a whirl. Working means I delay my driving lessons! So.. I'm thinking about working for 3-4 months only. But it's only my 1st week. How am i to live? Hahaha. Oh yah, I need to go back to PJ soon! I miss I miss I miss!..

Met Marilyn yesterday in the afternoon! Good chat! (: I likes. Went to NUS Biz Fair. Interesting I must say! I was quite impressed! (: Heehs!

Memories just fall on me like the shooting stars! The same beauty.

-Mel
-loves
Friday, January 12, 2007

*Dreams*--> They went in to NS already! Wish them all e best with the next chapter of their lives! Jiayou oks guys!? Girls will work hard WORKING to earn a decent pay! (: Work Work Work. Hopefully I'm able to get through this for months! (: I'm worried. It's only my first week. The distance has already got me bothered. It's FAR! Oks. Haven't formally announced this but I work at NTU - Nanyang Business School Faculty - MBA Dept. (: Hahaha. I like the job! I did get to learn quite a bit of stuff. But still, slowly getting used to it. Hopefully things will start to get better and better.

(: Going with Marilyn to NUS Biz Fair tomorrow! Hopefully there are interesting things there! (: We'll have a blast! I'm sure! (:

How can I let go of something so special? How can we put ourselves in a position where we both began. This would have meant that those memories were just wasted time spent. The longer it had begun, the more fragile it is. The more fragile it is, the easier it would break. But still letting it break was not accidentally, but deliberately by those who even made that so fragile in the first place..

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, January 11, 2007

*Dreams*--> 3rd day of working! WOOTS! Yayness! But alot of stupid things happened to me today! Xin & Ying was laughing at me non-stop! Goodness. I am sucha blur dumbdumb today! Was telling them about a person who applied to study in the university I work in, Li DONGDONG. Wahahahahaha. I laughed my head off. Oks. That was mean. I SOOOO Wanna thank Jason for entertaining me with his sms-es! (: THANKS A MILLION. Hahah. Oh okays! And yes, I forget to thank my dearest cutest elmo, MELISSA CHAR LAY CHENG for talking to me on the phone whenever I'm in work. HURRS! (:

Went out with Hi 5 and Melvin today cos' Zhaoqi & Chenjie are going army tomorrow! Commando! Haha, I'm kinda worried for their safety! Dangerous man! But still, I wish them all the bestest from e heart! I'm SOOO Gonna miss them loads! (: Oh yahs, they will be bald by tomorrow! OH NO! Lols. So here's a photo of them with nice hair! Hahahaha!
LIN CHENJIE & LEE ZHAOQI

My Jiemei, must jiayou oks?

-Mel

Whenever I feel like crying, I look at the sky, hoping that it won't fall down on me. Sometimes I wonder what would life be...
-loves
Wednesday, January 10, 2007

*Dreams*--> (: Working is tiring, but I think it's a good learning experience! Minus the fact that I have to dine alone! BOOHOOHOO! But sitting on my desk is comfy! LOLS. Wanna give a special shoutout to my dear Lynn for always talking to me on the phone during lunch! (: Thanks a million!

Went back to PJ Orientation yesterday! Boy do I miss the school. I miss it to the CORE! Saw the cafe. Nice! (: Felt that the o1 storyline was not bad. All the way 7th SC! Do the 6th Proud! Danced Mass & Fun Dance! Heehs! (: Plus all the song sessions! Overdose of College Song, Ice Kachang & Chapter Next. Oh man. I love the song Chapter NEXT!

(: Meeting Hi 5 tomorrow with Melvin! (:

"I feel like the sky is falling down on me! No one understands!..."

-Mel
-loves
Monday, January 08, 2007

*Dreams*--> employed! Repeat after me - HIP HIP HURRAY! Hahaha. The sad thing is i'm starting tomorrow! And I planned to stay in PJ the whole day! But to my dismay, because of this new arrangement, I got to rush over by CAB to college. I miss PJ man! TO THE CORE. LOADS! Heehs. Hope I can be there on time thou! Too bad my complement won't be there. I miss him truckloads!

(: Me and Lynn have been going to JE for like a couple of times this week. We realize that when we go there, we see strange things! WEIRD WEIRD WEIRD. Today we went to this ULU factory in BB and got kinda lost there. But because we are optimistic, we'll take it as a learning experience! I hope Lynn will get a job soon! We always say we are "TONG GAN GONG KU". Since our mugging days till now, we have proven so!

Heeh. Chatted with CJ last night till late and talked about loads of things. God knows how much i'll miss him when he goes army! CJ and Qi are going army on Friday!! RAR!!! Lols. Time flies so fast. Me, Ying & Xin would be working. Hahaha. So many transitions. So weird. Anyways, I'm going to miss them truckloads! (: Honestly!

May everything be alright between us!

May tomorrow be fun! Looking forward to Orientation Finale! WOOTS! (: PJC here i come! PJC i love! (: Gonna take loads of photos tomorrow! Heeeehs!! (: LOVEEE!!

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, January 06, 2007

*Dreams*--> I've been deeply in my own thoughts lately! I felt stuck in my own delusion. This is just weird. I need something, someone, some form of lie to tell me that everything is going to be fine, but I really doubt it. Cos' I don't feel the love!

Went Acid Bar with some of 'em yesterday night. Had a couple of drinks but I was kind of tired somehow or rather, cos' of jobs hunting these few days I guess. Feeling quite restless now as well.

I feel as if no one understands me anymore. NO ONE!

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, January 04, 2007

*Dreams*--> I honestly don't know what's gotten into me. I feel so UNLIKE myself. And truely I'm sick and tired of my lifestyle. I guess I haven't said that in a long while. Think the last time I said that was before my A's! I suddenly miss being a FULL TIME STUDENT. I miss being in JC! I miss that lifestyle! I miss idling with my girls in college. Slacking with my councillors + hangin with Hi 5! Hahs.

I've been looking at Classified Ads lately! Looking for jobs online and sending out Resumes. I didn't really imagine my post A levels to be that BOREDOM! Honestly!! After a couple of weeks of jobs hunting. It finally struck me today! I feel so SAD! I had the sudden urge to burst out in tears but can't bring myself to do something so stupid. Haven't cried in a long while. Somehow after a certain thing happened, I told myself, crying can't solve alot of things. NAHS!

Went to meet my girls at Lot One today for dinner. Initial plan was Holland V. But we changed due to the stupid no-one-expected weather. Heehs. Ate at Let's EAT! I haven't been to Lot One in a long while and I kind of miss the area! Don't live near there so only was familiar with the area after school-ing in PJ! Haahs. Yeah. I miss the feeling of staying late in college and going home like at 10 plus from Lot One with CJ! Haha. Those council days! Had the sudden urge to walk to PJ then go home. But any person in the right mind would not do that. SO I DIDNT! Hahaha. But I was pretty sad when I went home from there just now cos I suddenly felt lost. So I called my Jiemei which did help cheer me up! Flea said smth very true today! We kind of don't feel the transition from 2006 to 2007 cos' we're like stuck in the FULL TIME STUDENT mode! I sort of agree! I don't think i'm prep-ed for the working world! But I hope I will be SOON!

*Prays that I'll get a job soon!*

"I suddenly miss your presence!"

-Mel :(

I'm sure things are just fine. I'm just psycho!
-loves
Wednesday, January 03, 2007

*Dreams*--> 2007! I shall take this new year to be a new start! I saw a DOUBLE RAINBOW on New Year's Day! (: Spent time taking pictures of it like a RETARD! Hahaha. But dumbdumb me accidentally deleted them from my handphone yesterday! Hahaha DONGDONG! Went out with Jason & Jenny on New Year's Day! I finally got my photo album! (: Thanks to Jas for helping me to put it together! (: Teehees! Had a talk with him about my university! Heehs. And he approves! Now, I'm more certain about my career choice after getting approvals from many! Got most of my approvals from those I really trust and those understand me enough to support my choice! (:

Been going HARD CORE job hunting recently! HARD CORE oks? I fill in like 4-5 applications a day. Call up companies. Writing Resumes. Sending Resumes! Goodness! I don't know why others can find jobs so easily while I can't! Pathetic I know. Lousy I know. But I just got to live it. I guess I'm just so used to being a FULL TIME STUDENT all my life! I miss JC man. I miss having the schedules, habits, and assignments to finish! I miss it badly! OH MAN!!

Since 1st of Jan, I realize my ez card taps "TI" and not "TI TI". Goodness! It's bloody expensive to take public transport now! Cos they charge ADULT FARE. Cost more expensive now. Can't always change bus and have a standardized fare of 45 cents. GOODNESS lah! Expensive! Now, like any kiasu Singaporean, I hope they don't increase Bus Fares! Maybe its good for the Economy but NAH! TOO BAD! Ha!

I see no pathway in front of me. Honestly, feel quite lost. Or maybe I'm not sure. I'm just a confused child. And to Weisheng, I STILL HAVE MANY COMPLICATIONS! Haha. Maybe sometimes I'm deceiving myself that I'm actually happy. Still unsure at the moment. Honestly haven't felt happiness since after Prom. Don't know why. I'm JUST LOST.

Heard PJ has a new Cafe. Hahaha. COOL. I miss JC. DARN.

I miss something. I can't figure what. But I miss..I don't know LARHSS! *RAR!

-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, January 02, 2007

*Dreams*--> HAPPY 2007! (: A year has passed by with just a blink of the eye! A new START. A new chapter of my life! (: I have yet to reflect about the past year.

2006! I love! (: Spent much time studying & mugging away. LIKE DUHS! My A levels can, what do you expect right? But 2006 was filled with FUN TOO! (: Busy with many Council Events! Orientation, Open House, Elect's CAMP, Investiture! Remembered how much I cried during Investiture! LOLS. I was just SO SURE how much I'll miss the crazy bunch of Councillors. Cos' they always seem to make my DAY! (: Tee-hee! Yups. After Mid-years, had to get down to serious MUGGING for Prelims & A's! It seems like every single exam had just speed passed and A's are just round the corner! I was stuck in endless consultations, tuition and had a stagnant lifestyle of mugging till 1-2am and waking up early to go to school! College life was getting boring, but still nevertheless, s09 makes my day by having talk-cock sessions occasionally! We got closer to our teachers somehow or rather (MINUS GP and CHEM though). Remember my gossip sessions with Gif & Lynn during GP, LOLS! Super hilarious! HEES! Lynn was my STUDY BUDDY! Cos' we had to keep up to each other's pace when it came to REVISION and went to consultations together. So part of my determination and hardwork is inspired by her! (: Haha. Hi 5 went out often to DESTRESS! Having FUN with them really got me out of my "DIE, STUDY STUDY NOW!!" Mode! (: LOLS. Had many laughs with them! Laughing is contagious & Laughing makes our day! Heehs. Love them loads! Soon, farewell assembly came! I cried AGAIN! Hahaha. Many memories I can never forget! (: Unforgettable! (: Then, A levels to PROM to now! (: I love 2006 despite all the stress, cries and tears. I simply enjoyed this year! (:

Thanks to Jason & Jennyang for their reminders & consolations! Thanks to Levin Sim Henglian for being here always! Thanks to Hi 5 for all their love! Thanks to Lynn, Char, Mag, Fel, Kris, Jas & S09! Thanks to the teachers esp. Ms Lee for their guidance! My apologies to those I've not been meeting THAT OFTEN...goes to Zhiwei, Shan, Dor, Xiaoyan & Ching! Thanks to the 6th Council for all the fun, laughters, peace & joys! CYA during O1 finale! Last but not least, my love goes to everyone that made 2006 a good year esp. My Family.

Now! A levels are finally over. JC life is OVER! I need to accept that. No matter how much I love college life, I can never turn back the clock! I have to keep these memories close to my heart. JC life left me memories that I will never forget in this lifetime! I've learnt alot! (: Of how important many friendships are important to me! (:

Things that I'm proud of myself this year:

1. Letting my feelin's be heard for someone special! (:
2. Having discipline during my A's! (Psss. Even though I admit I kept a distance from loads of people because I wanted to be in my "A level MODE - STUDY & NO PLAY" - Tsk! No good!)
3. Maintaining many friendships that mean loads to me! (:
4. One thing is - "FOCUS! Don't let anything get to you! Determination will take you further in life!"

(:

2007! I have resolutions! So here goes.. (Tsk! This better be good enough to keep!)

1. STAY POSITIVE! (With ample time, I tend to think alot which gives me enough reason to feel sad! So, it's best i don't think so much and STAY POSITIVE!)
2. Live life to the FULLEST with all my loves!
3. Maintain my relationships with people who mean LOADS to me!
4. Don't spend so much money!
5. Control my emotions!
6. Find a JOB ASAP!
7. Think twice before ACTION.

(:


Xin is taking the Photo! Hahaha. In Giraffe!


Me & My CHAR CHAR! Melissa ROCKS! Hahaha. (:


6th Council Rockin' the COLLEGE! (:



My GIRLS! (: Loves!


Hugs everyone! (:



ALWAYS & FOREVER! (: -Mel

"I realized that all I want is for both of us to be HAPPY ALWAYS! So that's most important. (: You are always remembered! (: Friends always, ok?"
-loves
Monday, January 01, 2007

*Dreams*--> Happy 2007 my loves! (: Resolutions will come tomorrow. For now. I need rest. I need LOADS of REST! I slept at 6am, woke at 11am. And went out till now. Celebrations are TIRING but FUN! (:

-Mel
-loves
PEACE-OUT





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x New Gallaz Shoe
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x Driving License
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