Sunday, December 31, 2006
*Dreams*--> I love this new Korean Drama recently - My Girl! (: I can't usually figure why people esp. girls are addicted to Drama Serials. I admit it's addictive. But after analysing this recent Drama. I've gotten some conclusions.
1. The guys are especially sweet. They put the girl they love on the pedestal. Treating her much like a princess! This keeps girls in a dreamy-mode! Hahaha. Dreaming of their Prince Charming!
2. Whenever the character is in pain/trouble/need help. There is ALWAYS someone to the rescue! But in reality, if you were at home sobbing, no one knows, do you ACTUALLY think that someone will RUSH OVER just to give you a hug? GO FIGURE!
3. Drama serials portray a love life that's filled with UPS AND DOWNS and that's SUPER EXCITING in such a BEAUTIFUL WORLD. In reality, although love does goes through many obstacles, I don't it it's as EXCITING and HEARTBREAKING as what the Drama portrays! And in real life, We face something called BOREDOM that definately Dramas can't show cos' no one would watch. DUH!
4. The guys are absolutely handsome/sweet/perfect. In the real world, NO ONE IS PERFECT. We often love the flaws of those we love. Because we just simply love THEM regardless of their inperfections. It just seems perfect for us.
GO FIGURE! Agreed?
-loves
Saturday, December 30, 2006
*Dreams*--> It's so weird that 2007 is just in a day's time! WEIRD. I mentioned today.."I have many confusions in my life..." I mean it. I do have many confusions in my life. Complications too. No one can solve them for me, no one but myself.
I need to figure my life out. Now, i'm utterly lost. It always seems that my life's pathway was just right in front of me. Everything decided. Most of the time, decisions come quick. But now, i'm at a crossroad. Things seem more and more complicated. More paths to choose. *sigh*
Ying went to KOREA! Greatly missed! I SOOO Wanna go KOREA!!
(: Happy 2007!
PUB CO OUTING WAS GR8! I love THEM! i WANNA go back for Orientation Finale. 6th SC...ON? Hahahaha
-Mel
-loves
*Dreams*--> My Girl OST -서른 번쯤 (: Nice! Heees! (:
-loves
Wednesday, December 27, 2006
*Dreams*--> HAPPY BOXING DAY! (: 26th! (:
Honestly sick and tired of my life till now. Sleeping at 4-5am. Waking up at noon or later! Then going out shopping/slacking/dining/tea with my mates till late then coming home again to sleep at 4-5am. Goodness. Life is good with regards to having as much sleep as i want. But still...sick of it. No motivation or goals whatsoever. The only thing I want to settle is to get a JOB! I just pray I'll be able to start work by the 2nd week of Jan. Honestly, sick of slacking!! REALLY! I need just a bit more stress in my life for now.
Going to Hongkong soon! End of Jan to early Feb. (: Going to SHOP till i DROP! By then, CJ and Zhaoqi would be going in Army! Everyone would be working already! Doubt there will be much outings! So.. I've gotta keep myself BUSY! So.. my most important goal, as mentioned...FIND A JOB!
I was thinking about PJ again! JC life is shockingly SHORT and SWEET. I've enjoyed it ever since it started. And now, it abruptly ended. It feels like a cut to me. Ending so abruptly! I guess I haven't enjoyed it enough! Even with the stress, the exams, endless tutorials, many consultations. IT WAS FUN! Honestly something I would never forget! PJC left me unforgettable memories.
"All the pieces are finally pieced together. I finally solved this mystery after so long. Now, I am much better. Everything makes sense and I'm can say that this is definately the RIGHT choice made by us. For that, I'm satisfied. Hope you are too! STAY HAPPY! That goes to me too!"
-Mel (:
-loves
Tuesday, December 26, 2006
*Dreams*--> PRETTY!!
Jingle Bells. Batman Smells! Robin laid an egg. Merry Christmas! (: I LOVE CHRISTMAS!! Hurray! (: Hark! The Herald Angels Sing! Glory to the new born king! (:
Been really busy with Christmas Celebrations since Christmas Eve!! So many things needed to be settled that day! (: Hi 5 came over for Supper! We had Steamboat! LOADS OF FOOD! But we had a good laugh. We went high on non-alcoholic drinks! Heehs. But I really miss the laughs we had. LOVES!
Went to Church today! I was quite touched with the whole Christmas Celebrations going on! The carols, the candles! So pretty! SO TOUCHING! (:
Thanks to all for their Christmas Wishes! It meant alot!
(:
-Mel
-loves
Sunday, December 24, 2006
*Dreams*--> Christmas is in a Day! Hurray! It's Christmas Eve!! At least that's something to keep my moods high nowadays! Hmm. Christmas time!! I LOVE!!! Got my present from Jenny today! He's so sweet. Thanks a million. I loved the gift! (: Teehee! I do!! (:
Yesterday was uber fun but really tiring. Went with girls & Zhigang to Escape & WildwildWet! (: WOOO!! Funfunfun! We enjoyed ourselves to the MAX! Sat the SLIDE UP RIDE like... LOADS OF TIMES. The guy practically knew us already! SOOOO FUN! SOO THRILLING. For a moment there, I thought I was going to have a heart attack!! Hmmm. (: Met Kris & Baobao with the rest at Holland V for Tze Cha. (: Yummy Yummy! (: SUPER FUN! And the best thing is.. We paid only 16 bucks for everything!! CHEAPO! What the...
Ate at Levin's Workplace today! Shin Kushiya! (: Yummmmm FOOD! (: Expensive though. But thanks sweetheart for the discount. It cut me a BOMB! (:
I want a job! (:
Hi 5 is meeting up soon!! YAY-NESS. I MISS YING!!!
-Mel
-loves
Thursday, December 21, 2006
*Dreams*--> NEWSFLASH not: I haven't got a job yet! I'm glad I met up with my Jiemei these couple of days! Tee-hee! (: I'm uberly glad he's back. (: Have loads of Christmas Plans these couple of days! Busy Busy! Well it beats being bored doesn't it? Well.. Much has changed. Girlfriends are mostly working nowadays so pretty much left with Me, Lynn, Fel & Jas that hasn't got a job yet. SAD. Mmm. I met Shaun on Saturday! Heehs. Haven't seen him for a like a LONG LONG TIME! So it was rather fun meeting up with him! We went to eat Ice Cream at Island Cremery for like the whole night! FUN FUN FUN! (:
Christmas is coming! (: HURRAY! HURRAY HURRAY! (: I LOVE!!
Ear Candy: Chi Xin Jue Dui By Li Sheng Jie
-Mel
words don't come easy.
-loves
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
*Dreams*--> It's been raining non-stop! The rain makes me sad. Or maybe it's raining cos' I sad. Whatever it is, It's raining. And I am Sad! Hahahaha. (: But at least there's something to make me glad after all. My JIEMEI is back! CJ is back. Just finish talking to him! God Knows how much I miss him. Heehs. There's just so much so much I want to tell him, so..I'm thinking of meeting him tomorrow for dinner. Heeh! Yeahs!
Going Christmas Shopping tomorrow once more!! I've been going shopping too often! Hahs. What's with me! For me, Christmas ain't the same without gift exchange. Even though I'm rather broke cos' of these past weeks, I guess I still needa buy presents or else the season of sharing & joy won't be complete for me! Meeting Hi 5 after my family obligations on Christmas Eve! Looking forward to it. I hope we have a blast! It's 4 days to Christmas! Hurray. I'm finally feeling the Christmas Spirit. FINALLY! I really really really LOVE CHRISTMAS. As I've mentioned, Christmas to me, is like my Birthday. It's one of my favourite days of the year! Hahaha. The lights, the carols, the spirit, the giving & sharing, the joy, the celebrations - I LOVE!!! (:
Still don't know if I got the job yet. My guess is that I didn't. I guess my interview was rather screwed because my Chinese wasn't good enough. And personally, I don't think I gave my best. Being a telemarketer is difficult anyway, I don't want to have a job with so much stress. So, I guess I have to go job hunting again! Hmmm, being someone that's jobless, I feel so aimless and lost sometimes. There are days when I'm just lazing my ass at home doing nothing! Time is endless compared to the past, when I used to time myself during study breaks. Hahaha. Though it was just a month ago, it feels like its been a gazillion years ago. I've already forgotten the feeling of burying myself in endless books. Haha. But whatever it is, JC has been fun. I love JC life. I love PJC! (:
Melvin's Back. CJ's Back. Welcome back people! Hope you enjoyed your holidays! I really wish I could go on holiday too! But.. since Christmas is coming. I can't bear to leave. I wanna spend Christmas with all my loved ones!
To everyone out there, thanks for your concern. I'm feeling better. (: Life is WORK OF ART. Hehehe! Things aren't as complicated as they seem. I'm fortunate enough to have an outcome that I desire. For that, I'm lucky! (:
-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, December 19, 2006
*Dreams*--> It's raining again! The rain can really affect someone's mood! Heehs. But right now I feel numb. Been feeling quite NUMB lately for no reason or another. Been thinking quite alot, however I don't feel like telling anyone about it, maybe because I don't feel comfortable or maybe because I just feel like keeping things to myself once in awhile. Troubled about many things but I understand that I have to face them alone, no one CAN or SHOULD help me right now because they can't. I've got to help myself get over everything. Just me and only me.
Job hunting has been unsuccessful! Went for an interview the other day. Body filled with nerves then. The interviewer was so mean! She actually questioned me on my chinese proficiency! She asked me what was internet,email and website in chinese! I only knew what was internet. For the moment, I was quite stunned. She also questioned me on my abilities and how I would sell a pen to someone! *DIAOS* Not easy okay! Hmmm. Will only know tomorrow if I do successfully get the job! The pay is rather good but..if I don't get it, I'd probably try borders or other places! Working for me is more of an experience! I want something I can write in my resume.
Have been shopping quite often lately! Went out with Char today to go around shopping! Felt like the crazy dongdongs we are going to every shop which has sale! From Zara to Mango to Gucci to Guess. Sales just drive us Mad! Last time, food chem used to drive me mad!
I've been missing PJC memories again. I miss mugging. Some of you may go "DID SHE TYPE THAT RIGHT?". So I shall repeat myself. I MISS MUGGING AKA STUDYING AKA BURYING MYSELF IN BOOKS. Those endless consultations, never-ending tutorials that we can never finish in a day, past exam questions, dozing off in GP, trying to focus in Chem even when Mr. Chan is super boring sometimes, rushing through Math so we have lesser tutorials to complete. Haha. Come to think of it, those were fun! (: My Saturdays were usually occupied with Tuition! Charlie Chan! (: Heehs. Me and CJ used to meet for lunch every saturday and went for Tuition together. Usual plan will be to meet Lynn and d rest at Lot One. Early people go and settle sweet talk! Hahaha. And VERY OFTEN, I'll be the one who goes to Teck Whye or Lot One to DABAO Sweet Talk Drinks and WAFFLE and Food for the peeps! Well, it's because I'm nice! (: Remembered rushing after class to make it for Council Meetings that would usually end pretty late. But then again, I love those moments! Heeehs.
"Life is a work of art. Art is only appreciated by those who know how to perceive them. I've thought about it. I'm already putting in all my efforts. It's time for me to call it quits. I need to breathe some air. In the mean time, I hope everything is gonna be fine...CAN?"
-Mel
-loves
Friday, December 15, 2006
*Dreams*-->Have You Ever...
Have you ever cried at night,
Thinking it was bad,
Have you ever lost a love,
The only thing you ever had,
Have you ever screamed out loud,
From pain that you have felt,
Have you ever stopped and looked,
At pain that you have dealt,
Have you ever questioned someone,
Of love and if its true,
Have you ever really wondered,
If they truly feel for you,
Have you ever felt abused,
Or worried while you wait,
Have you ever made a big huge deal,
Over someone being late,
Have you ever had them leave,
And watched them walk away,
Have you ever thought of leaving,
But could only sit and stay,
Have you ever hurt someone,
And looked at what you've done,
Have you ever been the one that's hurt,
And thought that you were the only one,
Have you ever loved another,
And never told them so,
Have you ever tried to tell them,
But didn't know how it would go,
Have you ever been alone,
Where no one else could see,
So you sat at home remaining unknown,
having nowhere else to be.
I've felt this way before,
I've felt and dealt it all,
I've even lied,I've even cried,
I've even felt the fall.
But nothing makes it better,
The Guilt or the Pain I feel,
I wish it all would go away,
I wish it wasn't real,
But that is not the case,
And it could never be,
It took me too long to open up,
And took me way too long to see,
I must;Own up to mistakes I've made,
Get past the pains I've felt,
Wipe away the tears that are in my eyes,
And reflect on the tears I've dealt,
And Tell someone when I love them,
Before they go away,
And maybe if I word it right,
They just might want to stay.
-Dennis Mayer
My Reflections : I almost cried reading this.
-loves
Thursday, December 14, 2006
*Dreams*--> Unspoken promises and dreams. Unreliable but still somewhat unforgettable. That's probably the reason why aches are felt and dreams are easily shattered. Some say never to believe too much in something because when reality has arrived, things turn into disappointment.
Went blading today! It was raining and my mood started to turn bad. Wanted to learn how to cycle cos' I'm sucha failure whenever there's camps & barbeques in East Coast. But ended up blading. Okays lahs. At least there's improvement. I don't take as much time to blade from one end to the other. Got so tired easily cos' of the rain. Had cramps too and wanted so badly to vomit. Still have that thought in my mind. Goodness I hate the feeling. :(
Went to town. Mood was still down. But i didn't want my mood to affect everyone else. Ate in the village. Didn't eat much cos' I didn't have the appetite at all. Didn't have appetite the whole day! ARGH. Hate this. :(
To those going army tomorrow. All the best! Will miss ya guys!!
-Mel
One more thing, I miss my JIEMEI LIN CHEN JIE to the CORE!! Faster come back!!
-loves
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
*Dreams*--> Been sucha a PIG lately! P-I-G! Everyone has gotten a job except Me, Lynn & Char! Fel is on holiday! ARH. Been sleeping at wee wee hours of the night at like 4am? And waking up at like 1 plus. Hahaha. I guess it's been a habit I need to change! I forgot the feeling of waking up at 6 in the morning, heading to school and MUGGING till like 2am! Goodness that was just weeks ago. So much have changed these past weeks. SO MUCH..
Slack. Slack. Slack. Luckily I'm going out to play tomorrow! (:
-Mel
-loves
Monday, December 11, 2006
*Dreams*--> Went Trivor Outing today! I felt so bad cos' I arrived late and left early! Teehees! Sorry guys! Family Obligations! (: Was thinking about something today, just merely a month ago was A levels, it feels distant somehow. Its seems like I've already forgotten the feeling of HARD CORE MUGGING and TIMING my breaks for eating and ONLY have 5 whole HOURS or less for beauty/energy sleep. Then, I was so focus-ed, So motivat-ed and So life-less. Now, I have a life, an aimless one, things I envisioned enjoying after A levels aren't as exciting as it is. The feeling of excitement is rather numb.
My Brother is trying to get me a job as an event organiser! I hope I get it! *prays* Since it's my passion to plan, I guess I'll have alot of fun doing that! Ooo. Pay is not bad too! So..I hope i get it! (:
I'm BORED. Town-ing is boring! Shopping is becoming DEAD. I've gotta find something more exciting!! Argh. Serves me right for not finding a job early!
-Mel
heart still feels numb.
-loves
Saturday, December 09, 2006
*Dreams*--> Slacked. Just finish re-watching FULLHOUSE! I took 3 weeks amazingly! Haha. Must be due to how busy I've been lately! Busy going out rather than doing constructive things! Sad case. Hahs. Anyways, FULLHOUSE is really sweet! (: Hahaha. Somehow can relate to it emotionally.
Christmas is coming in around 2 weeks time! I love Christmas! To me, Christmas is like as exciting as...My birthday! (: Haha. Honestly! But somehow or rather, though I do look forward to Christmas, I can't foresee anything exciting happening. Maybe in another week I'll be feeling the spirit! (:
Though I lost, to another extent, I gained too! I would say that it's probably an unexpected miracle somewhat. When you give your heart away, everything wrong seems right again although from the start, things shouldn't have begun. ache.
-Mel
-loves
Friday, December 08, 2006
*Dreams*--> Chenjie left for Aust. today! I'm so gonna miss him can? MY JIEMEI! Haha. Imagine him going into army! I'll be so sad! Everyone's on holiday! I wanna go on a vacation too!! *whines.
Currently looking for a job. There was a job offering to arrange and design magazines and calenders for this company! Sounds cool! It's SO my thing cos' I get to play with Photoshop and all the super cool computer programmes! Sounds just like work in Pub Co! Oh gosh, I miss Pub Co! I miss council! But the job ain't confirmed yet. I'm currently job hunting for other jobs! But provided these jobs suit my interest! Any recommendations?
I guess having so much FREE time now gives me reason to daydream and think alot about unneccessary issues. That just sucks totally! Why do I always allow myself to think too much? Totally waste of brain cells! This has made me quite sad these couple of days cos' I've been thinking alot about useless stuff that even I myself knows makes me sad! This is the main reason why I sound sad somehow or rather in my blog! Yupps. Thanks to some for your concern! (: esp. Marilyn...Thanks for the thought, girl! (:
All i want is to hold you forever, All I need is you more everyday. You saved my heart from being broken apart, You gave your love away, And I'm thankful everyday for the Gift.
-Mel
-loves
Thursday, December 07, 2006
*Dreams*--> I'm bored. HONESTLY. I so want to go on a holiday! There are like more than 4 people I know that are going overseas tomorrow! All in time to go and play after Prom! I SO want to go overseas too! :( My Jiemei is going Australia tomorrow!! I'm so going to miss Chenjie!!
Been mostly slacking most of my time away. If ya haven't noticed. I changed my blogskin! Just for the fun of it! (: Lynn, Char and CJ came over on Tuesday to slack and bake! Met Shan yesterday to have a drink in the afternoon! Met Fel and ZW after that for dinner! (:
Today was uber FUN! (: Hi 5 came over my place. And each of us had to prepare a dish each! (: I cooked Stir-Fry Honey Chicken. It tasted alright since it was my 1st time cooking that dish! Zhaoqi made Linguine! (: Yummy but just too much sausages! Heehs. Ying made Broccoli and Potato topped with Corn Soup as Sauce! Yummy!! Xin made potato balls. Haha. They were really good! (: The funny thing was the way the 5 of us handled everything in the Kitchen. It was so comical I tell you. We were laughing and laughing away! FUN FUN! (: I had such a blast! Kinda miss this kind of fun for awhile now...
Some thoughts are left for myself to keep. Whether I'm just kidding myself or whether it's true really depends on future happenings. For now, I shall just let wounds heal. For love shall wait..
-Mel
SOMEONE SAVE ME!!
-loves
Tuesday, December 05, 2006
*Dreams*--> Today was kinda fruitful. BAKED. (: Cookies were fine. Brownie sorta screwed up. Probably because cookies are easier to bake and CJ and Char were baking with me too. The brownies was an individual effort of mine! And so, it's basically screwed. Boy, baking should never be a career choice for me!
Life is truely aimless. I've been saying that repeatedly! AIMLESS AIMLESS AIMLESS. Ms. Lee said it right. She used to tell me that after A levels, all of us will feel LOST. Now, I AM FEELING LOST!
Things are easier said than done. :( ache.
-Mel
-loves
*Dreams*--> Computer is fixed. Finally. Please help me pray that it nothing happens to it anymore. I'm so so scared. :(
Happy Birthday to Mr. Jason Ng! (: Cheerios. (:
I'm tired. Apparently for no particularly reason. I guess living an aimless life is more tiring than living a busy life. I used to regard mugging and studying all the time as NO LIFE. Now, after A's, after Prom. I SO WANNA FIND MY LIFE BACK.
It's harder than I expected it to be. Numb inside...
-Mel
-loves
Monday, December 04, 2006
*Dreams*--> I woke up this morning having a sigh of relief and regret all at the same time. I've played enough. I need to do something with my life. It's been 3 weeks since A's are over. (: Hurrays to that. But I miss studying! At least then, I had an aim, a goal and a motivation. Now, all I can do is play! I miss JC! I miss long long council meetings. I miss cracking my head for Pub Co ideas. *Phew..
My PLANS
1. Travel the world
2. Learn to drive and get my license ASAP
3. Study for SATS as my "back-up plan"
4. Work
(:
Honestly clueless about how my heart feels. It's numb somehow or rather.
-Mel
-loves
Sunday, December 03, 2006
*Dreams*--> Computer down again! I hope I fix it within these few days! GOSH. Life is truely boring and aimless can! Using Bro's computer now!
3rd of December. I'm full of emotions. (: Rather happy than sad. At least I settled this. At least things are the best and I'm glad life is still as pretty as ever to me! I still can smile and tell myself that Life is beautiful and that I'm actually a fortunate girl. Things may not turn out right all the time. This burden in my heart is finally off my shoulders. I need not worry so much for I know the future will not be worst but rather, better! And for that, I thank him. (: And even to an extent, there are tears in my heart, I can still wear a smile on my face. (: This friendship of ours is special. And it will always remain special in my heart! (:
Tears of Laughter and Joy. For that, I thank you! (:
-Mel
-loves
Saturday, December 02, 2006
*Dreams*--> Party @ MOMO:
(:
-loves
*Dreams*--> Grad Night @ Swissotel + Party @ Club MOMO just rocks! (: Photos speak a thousand words. But I have over a 100 photos. (:
Just some fun shots taken @ Swissotel:
(:
-loves
Friday, December 01, 2006
*Dreams*--> Computer crashed cos' I was sucha sucker that I spilled Ribena on the keyboard. GOSH! I'm so dumb! Now it's all fixed, but to my dismay, all my DATA are GONE! GONE! GONE!!! This calls for ambulance can? I was so sad and I'm still very sad. My mp3s and photos still can be retrieved because of my pod. But latest photos uploaded like the ones taken @ THE CLIFF and the recent council chalet is GONE! Videos taken are also GONE! Ahhh. I'm SO SO sad. Though memories last more than just photographs and videos, being the Sentimental Me. I'm still very sad.
Graduation Night 2006 - One Last! Congrats to 7th SC. I think you did a good job. I really enjoyed myself and WELL DONE! I'm proud of you guys esp. my dearest SWEETHEART - Lingfang. (: We keep secrets. (: Hahahaha. Our emcee was the Flying Dunchman! He's simply superb! Excellent. Bravo! I really enjoyed the way he entertained us! Super cool. Yupps. Kris WON PROM QUEEN! She deserves it cos' I know she's gorgeous! We're all proud of her. (: Anyways, everyone at prom was dressed really posh and glam! (: The guys looked good too. CHARMING okay! Hahaha. Enjoyed myself alot. Hi 5 booked a room at the Swiss. We had a blast in the room though sometimes things can get rather chaotic. Took many many photos. Hahaha. I love my gallery!
Next HIGHLIGHT! - Clubbing @ CLUB MOMO! Funky man! Most of us went wild. Dancing Dancing and screaming our lungs out! It was super fun! (: I've never been much of a clubber but yesterday just rock my socks! Drank Tequila POP which I had to drink all in one shot. Kinda heavy though. The girls had fun too! (: Heehs. Dancing our night away! Reached the Hotel at 4 plus and slacked till around 6? Then 5 of us went to dreamland. We WERE supposed to be up at 8 to eat breakfast but... we woke up at 10 plus instead. We did something uberly crazy! We wore super "un-glam" shorts and t-shirts down to Raffles City to eat! We ate Burger King/Subway cos' Ying, Xin & CJ ate Burger King. Me & Qi ate Subway! But overall, HEALTHY BREAKFAST! Slacked in the hotel room till about 12 plus then checked out. OVERALL. NICE EXPERIENCE!! (: Hees.
photos up later! TA!
-Mel
