its STRONGER than DEATH


Wednesday, August 30, 2006

*Dreams*--> :(

Why don't you just kill me? I think I'll be much happier that way. I won't have to feel the hurt in my heart. 63 days to A levels. Less than 2 weeks to Prelims. Life cannot be any worst. Depressed and drastic moodswings. Just can't do anything right. And even if I am doing it right, I probably wouldn't know. Trying my best to release it all out by tearing my eyes out, but I'm too tired to cry anymore. Tears can relieve all the anxiety but nothing can take away the pain of these slashes. Sometimes I wonder why I'm so dumb, pursuing something that may not even be possible. But sometimes I ever wonder if I don't pursue this, sometime in my life I will have many regrets. There's always a "What if?". I just might regret every single thing. Things are turning out bad. Real bad. I wish I could just sleep all these worries away and let my dreams take me on a journey.

Turning 18 soon. One year older. More worries.

I MISS YOU.

-Mel

My NEW FOUND IDOL - Hyeon Bin I love!
-loves
Saturday, August 26, 2006

*Dreams*-->
-loves

*Dreams*--> Feeling quite down these days. Having a lack of appetite for no particular reason. Maybe it's cos I've been feeling unwell lately or maybe sadness lures in me. Came home early yesterday from school though I was thinking of staying back to study. Was bed-ridden the whole afternoon cos' I was feeling unwell. Finished watching the VCD Jie lent to me! "My Lovely Sam Soon!". Hahaha. That show makes me laughed. So I decided to buy a collection of my own today! It's such a entertaining show. Humorous but yet romantic. (: I love the lead actor, everytime he gives his "serious look". It looks as if he's heartbroken, make me feel like crying, can?

Tuition today was filled with loads of "Huhs?". Food Chem drives me mad. Milk contains Proteins, Carbohydrates, Fats, Vit. A, Vit. D, Vit. E and Vit. K (Fat Soluble), Calcium & Phosphorus. Milk is a gift from Heaven! Hahahaha. See, bet you didn't that? Lols. Food Chem. Food Chem. Food Chem. Food Chem makes food seem so de-appetizing.

"Often put you on a pedestal. And it would always remain that way. Spills of my emotions once more. *Splash* I wonder why many yearn to love when they know they will always get hurt. Wouldn't it be better if days could be so carefree and you wouldn't have to worry about another person all the time? Wondering where he is, whether he's doing well? If I continue, people may start to get the impression that I'm a cynic. Those promises. Those memories are still lingering in my mind always. Never erased. Sometimes without these memories, life may just be much easier because that way, I wouldn't have to reminisce and miss those moments together. I don't like the feeling of living each day hoping for a miracle to happen or for those times to happen once more. I don't like the feeling of feeling hurt whenever I see you walking away from me or that sense of coldness. I don't like watching drama series and tearing about my own love story all at the same time. I don't like having a slash in my heart whenever I think about happy moments in my heart. "

Some things happen for a reason.

-Mel
-loves
Friday, August 25, 2006

*Dreams*--> Saw e Pretty Bag again! In Mag's FEMALE Magazine. Pretty Pretty! Onitsuka Bag at Star Three Sixty! $129! So expensive. I love it! (: It's down in my shopping list as long as Mummy doesn't kill me!!

(:

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, August 24, 2006

*Dreams*--> i've loss all understanding in you...leave me be..
-loves
Wednesday, August 23, 2006

*Dreams*--> Thou I was feeling really sick when I reached school, today was a fun day after all! (: Heehs. Lessons were really productive esp. Econs! (: Hahaha. Mdm Loh's Revision was really effective! (: After that, we had Maths Test! Statistics! Was aiming to get full marks but after the whole paper, I realized that I made a careless mistake!! Ahh! Hoping to get an A thou! Soon after, we had to rush to the grandstand for Track & Field Meet. J2s didn't have the liberty of getting good seats cos' most of us had Math Test! Had to wear ugly GREY SHIRT! *ugh*. Was sandwiched because of the influx of people, had to sit at the first row! No offence to Darwin but I really wish I was in OWENS! My heart belongs there man cos' I love the housemaster, Mrs. Annie Loh! (: She's the best ever. Cheered for Owens all the way! (: Congrats to HuanQing & the rest for winning 1st place in Tug of War! Goes to Ying & Kris too, for winning 1st place in all of their events! So proud of them! (: Sam was damn cool when he was running! Cool man, CONGRATS!

During the prize giving session, we sat with Mrs. Loh and found out a big secret! It was her Birthday today! (: We made her so paiseh cos we sang a happy birthday song like ALOT of TIMES. The basketball guys were super funny when they were wishing her Happy Birthday! She was so shy! (: So funny. All in all, she's really a well-loved teacher in PJ, maybe cos' she's really motherly and understanding towards all of us! She's the best! (: Love her! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MRS. LOH! (:

Went to town with Qi, Melvin, Jie & Ying. We ate Swensens! (: Yummy! But somehow or rather, I had no appetite to eat anything yummy today. Maybe because I wasn't feeling well. Ate Salad in Swensens. How sad right? Was laughing at Jie cos' he was making his long speech on his "opinions". Qi said he was giving a lecture. Super funny lah!! And how Melvin & Jie was bickering about the bill. Lols. Xin joined us in Starbucks after that. Here comes the highlight of the day man! We started playing really retarded but FUN games suggested by...Qi! First was the game where we had to guess squares and flick it to position that we guessed it to be in! Whoever guesses wrongly, will be flicked on the knuckles! So torturing! I was constantly being flicked, it was so painful, especially from professionals like ZHAOQI! So pain lah! Then played a game of fingers! Was so complicated. They said I needed tutorials for it cos' I was very blur playing the game! Constantly lost! Sucha loser man!! Haaa.. I need to practice!! (: It was super fun playing thou! Laughed my head off! Hahahaha!!

Had fun today! I'm happy!

-Mel

"you had me believe in love..."
-loves

*Dreams*--> Once agains. Spills of my emotions. Every single day, I leave a lil' time to
reminisce about those moments. Maybe because those moments, to me, they were too perfect to be true. (: And I begin to miss those times. I don't know why I'm bringing myself to such agony thinking about things like these that I'll just make myself sad. There was once when my life was full of colours because there was you and everything was just simply perfect. Those promises you made, I chose to believe even though I was uncertain if you would keep them. Moments like those can never be replaced by anything or anyone. They just mean too much to me...

Till now. You're more than perfect to me.
-loves
Tuesday, August 22, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mel hates being sick! Mugged the whole afternoon. Quite productive. 3 weeks to prelims. Oh man. So not looking forward to next few weeks. :( Yesterday in school, i stared at a poster for bloody long! It was regarding the choir performance coming up. But that's not the point. The point is I miss making posters. Hahaha! During council days, used to make tons of posters and had to ask my 2 heads to look through them like a zillion times. So there was constant redo-ing. Hmmm. I miss making posters. I used to crack my head to see what crazy ideas would be nice as a poster, now after my term's over, surprisingly have LOADS of ideas that I wish I did or could do! Ironic isn't it?

Went with my bro to Raffles City on Sunday! New market place! There's Ben & Jerry's! Hahaha. We love. (: Loads of nice stores too.. was quite amazed and had so many.."WAHS!!" Heehs. Saw a pretty bag that I love!! I think the brand's Onitsuka or something like that from Star Three Sixty. I know they have a branch in Wheelock! Its white and there a strip of blue and red on it. Pretty Pretty! (: Hmmm. But quite ex. So I'm saving up for it! (:

Motivation for the un-motivated : Mugging makes you healthy, grow pretty and makes you happy! (:

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Didn't go to school today. Not feeling well. I hate being sick! I really do! *Pouts*
Hmmm. This stinks. Can't do my work well. I always feel weird when I don't go to school maybe because I'm so attached to the college.. Heehs. Ha.

Intended to mug hard at home but it's 1230 now and I haven't even began studying. Ahhh! I've gotta have discipline man! Mel.. Study hard.. Mug Mug Mug!! (:

"Thinking about our younger years..."

-Mel
-loves
Sunday, August 20, 2006

*Dreams*--> once again...you leave me this way...as i see your back walk away from me...
-loves

*Dreams*--> "all i'm content now is to make you happy.."

What's over should never pursued once more. I guess I have no right to question anything about the past when it's all just memories and history for that matter. My emotions are all over the place, messed up in my mind, in a total whirl. The amazing thing about feelings and emotions is that they can really pollute someone's mind in sucha way that can control someone's actions and perceptions. Many a times, you perceive something to be wrong but yet your emotions drive you to do it. Our emotions control us, and we don't control our emotions.

I should really focus all my attention to my priorities and not divert it to other dumb things that are just a waste of my braincells. One moment, I'm very focused with my studies, mugging and mugging. Then another moment, I'm daydreaming and thinking about things that I shouldn't even be concerned about. How saddening..

Love your enemies..

-Mel
-loves
Friday, August 18, 2006

*Dreams*--> Friday. Yet another week has ended. Friday's are the most slack cos of all the long breaks and just a 1 hr lesson of Econs. Heehs. So there's plenty of time to study! Hooray! (:

Studied in school till around 8! Quite productive but didn't meet my expectations. Haha. I have HIGH EXPECTATIONS. Tried the rice that the college "provided" for us. It was okay but quite bland! Heehs. Told Jas about my brother's crazy idea of bring Soya Sauce to school to add on to my rice. So hilarious. Hahaha. Don't think anyone thought it was "that nice". Went to ask Garn Rern and Zhisen..One said..."The food is really good!". The other said.."PJ Food never tasted better!"...Hahaha! I gladly thanked them for lying to me! So lame!!

Chief of Army came to college for a dialogue session! Very interesting. But there were people sleeping. I for that matter, didn't sleep, paid attention the whole way through cos' I felt it was rather interesting. Feel like he's quite an admirable person. He studied in Oxford and Harvard and even went to Westpoint! 3 very respectable college! RESPECT!

Saw Ms. Lee and had a good laugh with her. She's damn nice lah! And always super duper lame. Love to laugh at her lame-ness! She says if we call her Mrs. Yap, she'll ignore us for one lesson! Hahaha. Funny! Even saw her wedding photos with Mr. Yap that time, they are so SWEET!!! Had a good talk with Mrs. Annie Loh! She's so motherly. So nice. Soooo...gr8! She's the best PE Teacher I'd ever have. It's really a blessing to have her these 2 years. I really love her loads!! Spent most of the time complaining to her about loads of things! She's just super lovely! Thanks to her for giving me loads of advice and life lesson! Really enriching! (:

Mugging is my life.

"Still going to take the chance. Still going to strive on. Still holding on. ALWAYS!"

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, August 17, 2006

*Dreams*--> Getting more & more stressed as the number gets smaller. I'm panicking. So I'm mugging hard. Really hard. A levels are tough man! But i can do tough! I can. I have to have confidence! Will try my best as I have promised..

Last PE Lesson today! Mrs. Loh was so nice to us! She told us that she'll miss us. Awww.. Love her! These 2 years gone by so fast. Still remember I had a heart-to-heart chat with Mrs. Loh, she was really honest telling me about "Reality", then I cried. Right. She's a gr8 listener! J2s are about to leave PJ soon. Today got a Alumni Sign Up Form. Leaving PJ Soon. No more college life. 2 years just pass by so fast without you knowing it. Maybe because I enjoy it so much and how busy I am, that's why time flies uberly fast these 2 years. I've learnt many lessons regarding life, relationships and alot more. Most importantly, I've made people whom I've grown to love more than I ever expected! 6th SC! s09! Hi 5! (: They rock my life man! I don't want time to pass by so fast! I'm soooo..gonna miss college life!

I miss MASS DANCE & FUN DANCE! I miss those super pleasurable Orientations Songs! Chapter next! .."College is like a whole new page, like flipping a book, to CHAPTER NEXT!"...Ice Kachang! Hahaha. The actions and all. Ooo. I love Council Song! Council Song makes me cry. Cos' singing it really brings out all the emotion inside. *Emotional Mel*

"Losing Faith. Losing Hope. Just pray I won't lose you.."

-Mel
-loves
Wednesday, August 16, 2006

*Dreams*--> Dozing off soon! Heehs. I'm quite satisfied with my intensive revision these few days. Yay! Hope these 77 days would be as productive as possible. I believe I can! Haha. Confidence man. So stressed. My pimples are popping out. *Whines* and I feel like playing netball & Volleyball. Exercise makes you happy! Haha. It doesn't take as much effect as Chocolates thou. Okay. Suddenly thought of Food Chemistry - Proteins, Carbohydrates..Lipids... fills my mind. Think tmr is gonna be the last PE lesson ever. In my whole life! Cos most of the holidays are Thursday. Hahaha. WTH! Heehs. I'm going to miss Mrs. Annie Loh. She's damn nice lah! Gonna miss her!

"I'm sucha loser when it comes to him. It's like whatever I want to do it, when I'm about to do it, I just freeze. Then I say crap to convince myself not to do it anymore. ..You don't know how it feels, living my life without out you. You don't know how it's like, loving you all this time..."

-Mel

I love those memories. I love them. You made my life complete..
-loves

*Dreams*--> 78 days to A levels. These 2 days have been quite tiring because I've started my Intensive Revision. Trying my best to cope with my heavy workload from my Teachers & My personal Revision. It's tough. But I'll try my best! Was listening to Christmas Songs just now and tears started to roll down my eyes. Don't know why. I miss the holidays. Not holidays that I spend studying or worrying but those that were so carefree and life was just gr8. Yeahs. I know whatever I wish for can't come true. My college life has been super hectic, super worrying but yet super fun. Now, faced with much stress, I'm almost out of breath. I've never been good handling stress. Though my face doesn't show much of it, I get stressed quite easily. Anyone who knows me well would know that I get stressed quite easily and I constantly need someone to be there to tell me to "RELAX!". Don't know how I'm going to get through these 78 days. It may be a living HELL and also my worst nightmare but still I gotta get through this. This is my last hurdle. I really need to do well.

"Is this how it ends? ... NO! This is just a milestone in this journey of ours. Will you be there to stand by me like you've always been? Once...I thought you were always gonna be there.." In times like these, I miss you the most..."

-Mel
-loves
Monday, August 14, 2006

*Dreams*--> Today was sucha long day! Mmmm. Monday blues as usual. Ugh. But recovered when GP was over. Then had PE. Had to do this dance for Acer's Day. Don't understand why can't we just use the Mass Dance, it would be so much so convenient. Mass Dance is the BEST! Mmm. The dance steps are pretty interesting, but I feel it's not that easy to learn within 1 hr. So yeahs. Played Tug of War after that to help Owens house Tug of War practice. Haha. Myfirst time playing. Me & the girls were so "amused" by the whole thing. It was rather funny! Hahaha. Studied after that till 9pm! Haven't studied till this late for ages. I have to do it more often. Really condusive. Good Good Good. But I don't think I have that much stamina as compared to last year. Miss last year. As I was walking outside LT3, thought about the first times staying back at night with the Councillors. Remember how the Invest Programme Committee got scolded together late at night. There was one night that we stayed till 12am! Walking out of college. We were tired but we had a blast! Heehs.

"Those times are really appreciated & greatly missed. U make me feel so loved.."

-Mel
-loves
Sunday, August 13, 2006

*Dreams*--> ALERT : Change of Skin for the convenience of everyone. Got alot of comments that my previous skin was out of proportion and rather messy. Thou I loved it alot, but yeahs. This is okay too!

Studied today. Not the MOST PRODUCTIVE but at least I did. I've gotta get things going if I want my Intensive Revision to get going. I don't know why. I don't get much motivation whenever I stare at my books at my Study Table. I feel so lost sometimes. Like I know what I should be doing but yet don't know if i'm doing the right thing. Why do we have to take this freaking exam to determine our fate? More intimidating than ever. I fear the A levels but I won't let this monster eat me up! I'm going fight back. FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT. May this week be a new beginning. Hope I can start intensive by this week...So tired...So stressed. Out of breath.

"You are always on my mind. But I'm not...I miss those times..Wonder what can ever bring back those carefree experiences..."

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Mmmm. Saturday! Tuition day! Tuition is always fruitful to me! (: Heehs. Still quite guilty over the fact that my National Day Holidays weren't that productive. But I guess I've gotta get over it. I need to do intensive revision now! Mel you can do it! Come on!! Won't be going out so often nowadays. I hope..Haa.

Jenny's going for his Hell week tomorrow. Awww. I wish him all the best man and I really really pray he'll be alright. I have faith in him! (:

Went to meet the 3 of them - Levin, Xiaoyan & Ching to celebrate Xiaoyan's birthday! Heehs. Happy 18th Birthday my dear girl. Take care and love you! (: Stay happy and sweet with your Junming! Hahaha.


We ate Dessert at Cartel! Because of Miss Ho Xiaoyan!

"Thought of you. Wished you were by my side telling me that It's alright.."

-Mel
-loves
Friday, August 11, 2006

*Dreams*--> I'm guilty for not studying these 3 days. All I completed is homework. I treated this "holiday" as really a break for me to de-stress after all the stress that's been piling up. I realize I can't afford to do that ANYMORE! This week is almost wasted. Mel..What's happening! Don't lose it! I've gotta buck up. 82 more days to go. WHAO. Mel..Jiayou! Intensive Revision these few weeks. Putting a "DO NOT DISTURB" sign at my door. Haa.

Got my new phone! 3G! N73! Wee. Too bad I'm sucha idiot that I can't figure how to use most of the functions. Hope I can figure it out.

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, August 10, 2006

*Dreams*--> I had a gr8 dream last night. However I still have the notion that Dreams don't usually come true. But then again as Khoo Siew Chiow Says..."Dare to Dream!". Heehs.

Worried. I haven't been putting my full concentration into my studies. I guess I treated this holiday as really a "break" and "rest" from all the stress I've been getting lately. I hope I do good. I really do. I'm worried. I'm panicking. I'm flustered...

It's been around a month since 6th SC has stepped down. Goodness. I really miss those times together. No idea why, but moments spent with the councillors seem to be the most carefree times in my college life. I'm definate that I will never forget them. I've learnt so much from each and every one of them. Their motivation and passion has been an inspiration to me. I've come to realize that being a councillor is a sacrifice. We've had difficult times to face, many hurdles along the way. Many of us changed and grown to become poised individuals. Nevertheless, we pulled through. Many friendships forged and footprints left in my heart. I've very pleased with the outcome after the whole journey of Council. More surprising than I thought, I've grown to love you people more than I have ever imagined. Take care now! (:

"Don't forget to remember me..."

-Mel
-loves
Wednesday, August 09, 2006

*Dreams*--> Just finish watching the National Day Parade on TV. Tears started to roll down my eyes. And it struck to me how much I love my country. My home! I sound so patriotic now. When you're on the plane about to land at Singapore, ever told yourself.."I'm home!" and take a deep breath and just feel simply contented to be home? Or When you're overseas missing home? Missing the food. Missing the people. Missing the friends. Every morning, reciting the pledge, I just realize how important it is now. "...as one united people, regardless of race, language or religion to be a democratic society...". Singapore is my homeland. Regardless of how small our country is that we may not have alot of entertainment around, or how our Education System is just too stressful? I love Singapore! Remember the lyrics from a very old National Day I loved since I was young.."This is my Country, this is my flag, this is my future, this is my life, these are my family, these are friends, We are Singapore, Singaporeans!"

This is the last National Day to be held in the National Stadium. I feel so sad I didn't a chance to experience this year's parade live. Happy Birthday Singapore. I love you!

"This is home truly, where I know I must be, where my dreams wait for me, where the river always flows, This is home surely, as my senses tells me, this is where I won't be alone! For this is where, I know it's home!

-Mel

Photos from Yesterday!

The four of us at New York New York. Qi is MISSED!

Me & My dearest xin! (: WOO! Love her! (:
-loves

*Dreams*--> heartbreak.

Yesterday was a super jam-packed. National Day Celebration. FUN! Wooo. Sat with s09 girls & Chenjie & Lixin! (: The way we cheered, screamed and waved our flags. Omg! Screamed our lungs out. Had a gr8 time! Heehs. The celebration was interesting. The highlight - The Brakers performance & Weisheng's Song! (: Heehs. Qi's break-dancing was so cool & funky! Hope he didn't get badly injured though! Xin, CJ, Ying & me cheered like we were mad people! Hahaha. Songhoe & Gare Rern were so COOL too! Yeps. Weisheng's Song was FUNKY! Impressive becos' he wrote it last minute. Totally nice! (:

Had Econs extra lesson. How sad. Heehs. Den went to meet Pub Co at town! Those missing: Qi, Hugang & Yixin! Ate Ajisen and had a good laugh. As usual. Then went to eat at Gelare! Super FUN. Eunice still had a crazy idea to eat Secret Recipe. What a PIG. Had a very good laugh with them. Totally love them man. Hope the next outing everyone will go!

Rushed home to change then went with CJ to meet Ying & Xin at Cityhall. Qi couldn't make it! He was missed! Bumped into Jenny with his army friends. Ha. We went to eat in NEW YORK NEW YORK. I think I'm in love with the restaurant lah. Sorta like NYDC but the interior was fabulous. Food was yummy too! Haha. If you love NYDC, you're gonna love NEW YORK NEW YORK. I love NYDC, that's why I love that place too! Finished dinner then walked to Esplanade. Whaos. It was only 8 and the crowd was building. Mountains of people. We walked to the opposite of Esplanade to and watched the fireworks. WOOO. It was so beautiful. I fell so in love with it. Wished you were there with me! Hmm. After the magnificent displayed, we walked all the way from Esplanade to THE CATHAY. Chilled at Starbucks. Had a good time man! Chatted for awhile but most of us were tired. So went home after that..

Now. Super tired. Slacking but I know i've gotta get back to my books. Many things on my mind. It's National Day today! Heehs. Happy Birthday Singapore. I love you! I really do! (: Proud to be a Singaporean. (: Hahaha. My Island Home. Singapore!! Weee!

Sometimes no matter how much effort you put in, it never seems to be enough. Trying your best to make something work. To make sure that your concern is expressed, but it never works. I guess in times like these, appreciation is most wanted but yet never gotten. It such a let down knowing that being "this" close, everything would just work out. However.."this" is never achieved..

"Undo this hurt you caused when you walked out the door and walked out of my life.
Uncry these tears..."

-Mel
-loves
Monday, August 07, 2006

*Dreams*--> Five in the air, let's do it together. One! Two! Three! Four! Hi 5!!!

Me & My JIEMEIS. Hahaha. Someone that's been in the same school as me for more than half of my life. 12 Years in total. I know he's SICK OF ME already! But yeah. Really appreciate this friendship of ours. Our long heart-to-heart chats in this honest friendship of ours. He's MEAN too cos he LOVES to bully me. DONGDONG!


Me & XIN! I love her man. She's super fun, super sweet, super crappy to be with even though she always bullys me! Hahaha. Me and her just go crazy all the time. She keeps me entertained man. (: Esp. during our council camps when we're uberly bored. Feel I can tell her anything & everything under the sun. Hah. Xin is just GREAT!


This is my little sweetheart. Hahaha. YING is the sweetest little thing! Like to tell her my little secrets and just love that reaction on her face whenever I tell her something dumb! Hahaha. Enjoyable and fun to be with. Always motivating me! SWEET SWEET SWEET!


Me & QI! He's a GOON! Hahaha. Kidding. Yeahs. He's Nice & Sweet & the list goes on. BIG CRIMINAL of bullying me! But can't seem to get angry with him. Enjoy having heart-to-heart chats with him during long lunches/dinners. Super enjoyable I tell you! This friendship is appreciated.

Thanks for everything guys. Love you guys! (:

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Yeay! Yeay! Yeay! At last a BREAK. So tired from all the mugging I've been doing lately. Hmm. Did Math the whole day of today. Math freak. Think I'm going to re-strategize my study schedule. Apparently the college keeps giving us work so I need to make time for that. And manage time so I'll have enough time to do my personal revision.

"I do crazy things whenever it comes to you"...

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Just finish my work. Apparently finishing my work ain't mugging to me AT ALL. There's so much work. Too much to even complete. My teachers are NICE cos they keep feeding me with homework that all my files are so FAT. Mmm. Yeahs. There's alot of work. And I worried. Doing work doesn't assure me that I fully understand everything. That's why my personal revision is uberly important. Been trying to find time for personal revision. Less than half done. OMG. I'm panicking. PANIC PANIC. Hais. Facing a higher level of stress as compared to my O levels 2 years ago. Whaos.

"I won't give up on you. I'll keep to that promise.
Too bad you didn't keep to our promise.."

-Mel


My Evidence..
-loves
Sunday, August 06, 2006

*Dreams*--> Missing Christmas. Beats me why I love Christmas so much. Heehs. Mel is stressed. Really! I am.. HOW HOW HOW? Hmm. National Day is coming. And I'm sucha a dongdong because I'm still thinking of seeing fireworks that day. Whada GOONDU I am! I should spent more time on my studies!

"I'm your Guardian Angel... (: "

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, August 05, 2006

*Dreams*--> Tired and vexed. Just came home from tuition. Life these days are so hectic. Been mugging. But I'm quite unhappy with my mugging rate. Motivated but it seems that I can't put my FULL FOCUS into my studies. Will be going for night study often. But I don't I have the stamina to go every night. Remember last year, staying back for night study was uberly fun! Haha, stayed back super often with Jie, Xin, Ying, Qi and the rest. Fun times. Everyone was so carefree then. Had a classroom to ourselves, often ordered Pizza and crapped our way through dinner. Lols.

Mr. Khoo came to college to give a talk to us! Admirable. Ha. He climbed Mt. Everest lah!WHAO! Had fun yesterday. Played Netball with the councillors. I miss them. Seriously, I felt so carefree and worry-free! Heehs. Oh man I miss them. My Council Term was the best time in my JC life. I think it's also a highlight in my life. Met up with the girls at Holland V for dinner at Cha Cha Cha. Nice place. Rennie worked a Haagen Daz and Chengwei was working at Coffee Club there. Cool. Rennie gave us a 70% discount on Fondue. Yummy Yummy! He's working as a supervising manager there with the whole long sleeves and tie thing. Ha, COOL.

"I'm just a turn away. I'm right here and I'm here for you no matter what. Thought of all the memories with you. How things used to be so carefree. And you smiled and my heart would just melt. How you used to let me know and tell me things would be just fine. And that no matter what you're here for me...I miss you. You made my life so complete..."

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, August 03, 2006

*Dreams*--> I hope everything goes well. Losing someone is never easy. Well, what's consoling is that you know that at least that person won't be suffering anymore. May my Uncle rest in peace.

This pass week has been a reflective one. LIFE IS TOO SHORT. Appreciate it. Don't regret. Never take anything or anyone for granted. Always let someone know if they are appreciated and never fear to show your concern towards them. You never know when you might lose them and you may never have a chance to tell them how you really feel.

"1year"... Miss those times. I miss those moments. I hope never to forget them. I miss that feeling.. I miss you..

-Mel
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006

*Dreams*--> Received devastating news this morning. My uncle just passed away. Woke up seeing my mum in tears. It seems that no matter how prepared one is, the tomented feeling of devastation still lingers. Tried my very best to give my mum support and held back my tears. Didn't want her to feel even worse seeing me drop my tears. Waited till i reached school, felt super sad, and teared. How can things just happen so fast? It was only 2 months ago that my uncle found out he had cancer. And now, it seems like this killer illness has taken over his life. I pray that he's happy in Heaven. At least all his suffering is over now...

LIFE IS TOO SHORT. Seriously. Too bad many people don't appreciate it that much.

Super irritated with everything for no particular reason. Maybe its the contributions of my studies and the pressure that's been going on at home lately. I've not been able to keep up with my study schedule because of the fact that I need time to finish my homework. Spend more time finishing my homework than following up with my personal revision. Don't understand why the school must give us homework and still expect us to do personal revision when we finish school at like 5pm in the afternoon almost everyday. So many things to do, so little time. Torturing? YES!

Goodness. I'm worried about my studies. God help me, please! MEL!!! BUCK UP! Come'on!!!

-Mel
-loves
PEACE-OUT





THOSE MEMORIES

x December 2003
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PRECIOUS GEMS

MY LOVES


x *you
x my family
x & my loved ones!
x esp. Bestie - Henglian
x My girls, Hi 5 & Jason, Jenny
x Shopping is a given...
x Plus all my sweet memories

I WISH FOR


x friends forever
x your happiness
x my happiness
x New Gallaz Shoe
x get in 6th Sc
x New Digi Cam
x New Crumpler Bag
x 3G phone
x do well in PJC
x Driving License
x A Car - M5