its STRONGER than DEATH


Monday, July 31, 2006

*Dreams*--> "...Why does the sun go on shining? Why does the sea rush to shore? Don't they know it's the end of the world'...Cause you don't love me any more..."

Thought alot today becos' of the devastating news my mum broke to me. She told me that my uncle was really weak and the doctor said he will not be able to make it through. As she told me the news, there were tears in her eyes. I really wanted to cry but I felt I needed to be a support for my mum during this difficult time so I couldn't let any of my tears down till now. I could not imagine this world where people you knew just vanished from thin air and all that's left is just memories. How sad is that? Remember when I was a kid, I ran crying to my mum that I was afraid to die and I was afraid that I will lose people around me. As I grew older, I began to understand that death is part and parcel of life, and as my faith was stronger, I realized that death is merely a pathway to Heaven. However, I cannot deny that losing someone is something so devastating, imagine how many lives will change with the loss of that one person? As sad that I am, I'm still praying for a miracle, that my Uncle may make it through and that God may help him cross this hurdle in his life.

I think the most important thing I learnt today is that Life is SHORT. Too short that we can't afford to regret. In my lifetime, I've done too many things that I regret doing. However, this must change. I can't just do things then regret later! We should always live life to the fullest. Since young, it's been instilled in me that studies are the important. The level of importance has deprived me from the enjoyment of life. But after today, I feel there's so much more to this world that I've missed this 17 plus years of my life. This world is beautiful and I should enjoy to the fullest so that if anything should happen to me in just a split second, I won't regret not looking at how wonderful this world is.

At times, once opportunities are missed, there can never be a second chance. Whenever I feel that I should do this and that, I always tell myself that "There's gonna be another chance!". But today I wondered..."What if there's no more chance?". What if you wanted to say sorry to someone and you didn't have the chance to do it just for that moment because of pride or fear? What if you wanted to express your concern for your friends and tell them that they're the best people in this world? Or what if you wanted to tell someone special that they really mean alot to you? Sometimes, opportunities just slip by in that instance, and I start to regret. From now onwards, I'm going try my best to live life to the fullest. I'm going to tell the people I love that I love them and that they are really special in my heart.

Everytime I seem to come closer, you just run futhur away, throwing away the concerns I have for you. But I don't blame you because I realize that I brought it upon myself. I can't bring myself to be angry or show any resentment towards you because in my heart, you are perfect, be it the treatment you have towards me. This is not tolerance. I guess its called willingness...

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, July 29, 2006

*Dreams*--> Today was FUN! Weees. Went out with Ying, Xin, Jie, Cheong Hoe, Melvin & Qi! (: Haha. Earlier part of the day, Was a GOOD GIRL and went for tuition. After tuition, Melvin picked me & Jie up in his car, so funky lah. I so-want to drive can? Parked at Melvin's Country Club and walked to PS after that. We ate at Manhattan Fish Market. Yummy! But it was the fastest dinner I ever had. Cos we had to rush for our movie. Ying, Xin & Me shared the Galla platter, which we forced ourselves to eat in such a short period of time. Hahaha. Went to watch "The Lake House" after that. It was so nice, such a sweet and touching story. I totally cried lah. Love Stories are so heartwarming all the time. Heehs. Then, we went to Melvin's Country Club. There was a pub there and all of us went there to chill. Ordered drinks and started talking crap all the way. It was really fun! I totally love this drink - FROZEN STRAWBERRY MARGARITA! Wooo. Yummy Yummyyy! Plus the colour of the drink is pinkish red. Hahaha. Totally my fav! Totally enjoy chillin' lahs. FUN DAY OUT. (: Love Hi5! (:

"...whenyousmiledandmyheartmelted..."

-Mel
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Friday, July 28, 2006

*Dreams*--> Today was sort of a "reality-check" for J2s. Thanks to Mr. Yeo for his prep talk regarding our future! It seriously got me thinking and was really inspired by what he said. What do I want to achieve in the next 5 year? Or next 10 years? I need to reach my goal. I can't afford to screw up my A levels. Another important thing is that I MUST have faith in myself. I CAN'T lose my confidence. And SHOULD perservere till the end. I believe that I'm able to cross this last hurdle. As long as I believe, I can achieve! "A vision is a destination. It is not what a vision is but what a vision does"....

A LEVEL'S HERE I COME. (:

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> CRAZY S09 Photos...!

Look Ahead to Singapore's Future!


S09 without Daniel! Aww. Cool photo! (: S09! Our Class, Our Rules!


My beloved clique. Look at them. They are CRAZY. I seriously mean it in a dongdong way!

Someone taught me that forgiveness is virtue. One should never judge a person by their appearance. I guess it's my mistake for being too judgemental at times. I guess I should just let go of this feeling of intimidation. NEW BELIEF IN LIFE : Life is beautiful. Trust in this beauty!

"Vividly remember images of you walking away from me. Remember those moments when everything was just so special. When I think about now, I still remember exactly what I felt, and exactly how it was. I guess we get to choose the memories we want to remember and forget those down moments... I MISS YOU! "

-Mel
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Thursday, July 27, 2006

*Dreams*--> Lynn is right. I shouldn't be intimidated at all. I mean. What's there to be intimidated about yah? I shouldn't feel that I lost out. Cos I didn't. Afterall, I'm still of more importance. AGREED!

Studies Studies Studies. That's all i can and need to think about now. Feel like 97 days is coming soon. And it's scary. Really scary. It's the "D-Day" lah! God Bless me! (:

"It seems as if both of us know each other so well. Sometimes I can feel your presence. You're just there. So near yet so far to reach."

whenyousmiledandmyheartmelted...

-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, July 25, 2006

*Dreams*--> How did things ever turn out this way? Or rather do I expect too much? Sometimes I ponder on whether its your mistake or mine. Rather admit that it's my fault so I won't feel so sad all the time. Or maybe the problem lies with me alone. I'm too much of a perfectionist. However, it could be the both of us. In whichever of these situations, constantly feel taken for granted. Is it because I know you too well? Or is it because we just know each other too well that we don't need explanations of our attitude towards one another. Admit that at times I take you for granted too and I really don't find a need to explain to you as much as I need to explain to other people. So is us knowing each other too well being this hurdle that seperates both of us? Constantly sense a wall between both of us, a wall that I would said is built by our own two hands. Whenever we try to remove the bricks of the wall, we suddenly piece it back together when our minds, not our hearts come together. Right now, things may seem rather complete at times, but having this complete-ness just creates fear from being incomplete.

OR

maybe i'm just thinking too much..

-Mel
-loves
Monday, July 24, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmm. A start of a new week. 100 Days to A levels. Stress level is accelerating. Oh man! I feel so unprepared. Studying DOES NOT help to relieve it AT ALL! Hmmm. Starting my intensive revision again. Hope everything works out. It's time to overcome this last hurdle. Mel you can do it. Woo. Around 50 days to Prelims. Arg. BUCK UP!

Things has been really complicated at home. My grandma's in the hospital becos' she was too devastated finding out that my uncle had cancer. Terminal STAGE. My mummy showed me a photo of my Uncle, tears started to roll down my eyes, even though I'm not close to him, I feel really sad for him. I wish he would get well soon. He has always been a strong believer in faith. May God bless and protect him.

"Never take anyone for granted, for you never know when you might lose them..."

Studied quite alot today but I don't think it was optimum productivity. Need to study to my fullest. I gotta! After that, I watched Laguna Beach Re-runs on MTV OVERDRIVE online. Woo. Laguna Beach is so nice to watch! Love it man. Looking at how complicated their relationships are, mine is SIMPLE. Ha. Started to reminisce about college life. How this one and a half years just pass by so fast. ZOOM. In a blink of an eye, its 100 days to A levels. Whao? I had loads of memories in college - those times when I cried at that special place, those times when I laughed and had a blast like nobody's business, those times when things were just so carefree, those times I felt so crushed, those times when I had emotional moments with councillors, those crazy and sai-kang things councillors do together. Really enjoyed the end of promos alot, just playing, hanging out, doing PW. FUN FUN FUN. Thou PW does stink. No one can take away these memories. I love college life. I love the college. I love those memories. (:

Aw man. Miss Shaun and I bet he misses me. Hahaha. Too bad that dongdong is busy with his Mass Comm work. Heehs. Okaes, I admit I've been rather busy too. Heh Heh.

I need motivation..

"It's the hardest thing I'd ever had to do, to turn around and walk away, pretending I don't love you..."
-Mel
-loves
Sunday, July 23, 2006

*Dreams*--> I thought that you'd be loving me. Thought you were the one who'd stay forever. But now forever's come and gone. And I'm still here alone. But you were only playing. You were only playing with my heart. I was never waiting, I was never waiting for the tears to start...It was you who put the clouds around me. It was you who made the tears fall down. It was you who broke my heart in pieces. It was you, It was you, who made my blue eyes blue.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Fast & The Furious Tokyo Drift is gr8! Thanks to DANIEL for it! (: Yay! The show is super uberly nice! Heehs. Jam packed with adrenaline. WOO! Inspired to drive and get a Car ASAP! Hahaha. I wan an M5! Wooo!

Wees. Mel feels bad. I've gotta study. I'm afraid. I'm tormented inside. Reflections on this week. Not my personal best regards to studying. Cos' I've been meeting Levin Sim lately! Heehs. Not her fault lahs. Just that I need to conserve my time now to mug mug mug! I can't afford to screw this up. I seriously can't.

"Missing you. Do you remember? Heehs."

-Mel
-loves
Friday, July 21, 2006

*Dreams*-->


CRAZY SHOT of 6th Council. Look at everyone. What were we thinking?

I need to MUG! I need to do well. I can't let myself down. I can't let people around me down. Was upset by what Mr. Wahab said. Very upset that I ran out of class. Maybe because of his demoralization, or of the blunt truth. I can't face this. Felt really sad. Felt really disappointed in myself. It sometimes seems that no matter how much effort I put in, I don't get my desired results. SETBACKS. I faced many. Everytime I think about that horrible feeling and insecurity, I feel so frustrated.

"I need you. I need you to tell me everything is alright. That I'll be fine. That everything will be okay. And that no matter what, you'll be here for me. I know I cry easily. I need you to tell me that I'm a CRY BABY and yet tell me you'll still always care .."

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, July 20, 2006

*Dreams*--> Good News : My Room lights are much brighter now! Haha. Everytime my friends come over, the question is always : "You're light is not bright enough, how to study?" Mmm...Yeays! Hope this would make studying more condusive. (:

I love S09! We took our class photos today! With the help of our coordinator, Gif, our class photo with PERFECT! Heehs. Can't wait for the photos to come out. They're gr8! Went back to class and took photos with Mr. Chan. OMG. It was so cool and so funny! Haha. My class is so crappy lah! esp. during Math lesson where we always talk so much crap while we're in our world of statistics and during Chem lesson listening to Mr. Chan and his funny experiences. (: Haha. S09 Rocks.

I miss 6th SC. I miss 6th SC. I miss 6th SC. Haha. I really do. Jiayou people! Mug Mug Mug! We can do it. Let's show everyone what 6th Council is made of! Weee! (:

"I miss spending time with you. I miss the times when you smiled at me and my heart melted at that instance. (: " tooperfectformel.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> RONIN came to PJC! Wooohoo! Funky! Haha. Went with Lynn & Gif to see them at LT3 today! Wooo! Gif is a funky dude man! He sure looked like he was having fun! Hahaha. Really enjoyed the gig. It rockss!!

One week has passed since Investiture. Really miss 6th Council. Guess good things don't last. What we have is only treasured memories. I will never forget 6th SC! Went to Ser's blog and saw Pub Co photos. So I stole them! Hahaha. I love the photos. Pub Co I love you!



My beloved Pub CO! Muah!

MUG MUG MUG Mel! (:

"you're perfect. Too perfect for me!"

-Mel
-loves
Tuesday, July 18, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mel is a bad girl. Mel didn't study much today except for Math Prelim Paper. BAD! Argh. I'm furious with myself. But I can't give up. I have to get this out of me! COME ON!!

-So affected Mel
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*Dreams*--> Before I start. I would like to say:

Happy Birthday JOHN & JOSEPH! Stay cute and shuai shuai! Hahaha.

Woke up in the morning and found water coming out from the lights in my toilet. So freaky. Like dark water. Ew. It glushed out like no one's business. Water glushed out from my brother's room ceiling too. Poor thing. Luckily his stuff are not badly damaged except for his laptop which he's gonna go and fix soon. Feel bad for him. Mmm..Luckily everything would be fixed in a days time! (:

Today is quite short. All thanks to the Chinese Listening Compre exam. So wanted to watch Pirates of the Caribbean. But then again, there are other chances! Created a total miscommunication today becos' of my silly-ness. Arg. Felt so bad. Ha. Met levin for lunch at Lot one. Had a heart-to-heart chat. Bet she'll deny it. Yeahs. Whatever. Reached home and watched "P.S..I love you". It's so nice! Think I'm gonna buy the VCD! It totally rocks! I like it loads. (:
OMG. Seems like I'm turning into a VCD freak. CANNOT! Going to mug after I blog. (:

Realise that maybe I'm all just thinking too much. As many say, thinking too much makes us old. I don't want to be an old grandmum. So I better stop analysing situations too much till my wrinkles pop out. Ha. Virgos' THINK TOO MUCH!

"Just wish to be there by your side. To be there when you feel alone, when you get hurt and whenever you need someone. All I want is for your happiness!"

-Mel
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Monday, July 17, 2006

*Dreams*--> Today is the start of Mel's mugging day! (: Heehs. Yeays. Studied at college today after school. Rather tiring. Came home and watched Cheaper by the Dozen 2. Oh man. The show rocks. It was really hilarious. I laughed my head off. Hahaha! Super interesting. Super sweet. Then, continued to study till now. Hmmm. I feel really guilty cos' everyone around me is feeling the pressure of studies. I'm feeling it too. But somehow don't have much motivation. Feel like having a long walk and chat with someone close. Maybe I'll feel more motivated eh? Ha. Class today wasn't that boring as compared to last week. We're already starting revision. Yay! I like Revision. Hopefully everything goes well. Planned my study schedule already. Mel, Jiayou!

Su made an announcement today to thank Pioneers. And he mentioned it was gonna be the last time he would be making a speech on stage.I was like "Whao!". Goodness man. It seems kind of weird when all of us aren't councillors anymore. But no matter what, these friendships will last a lifetime. (: I love 6th SC. I love 'em! (: Thanks to Mrs. Tan, Mr. Tay, Mr. Yeo and everyone for their support toward Council yeah!?

I realized something. There are somethings which I cannot confide to anyone but to you. That's weird. That shows how dependent I am. How vulnerable I am if I were to lose you. Kind of pathetic I know. But then again, it feels good that I know whenever I'm in trouble, down or lonely, you'll be there for me. For that, thanks. I do wanna focus on my studies right now. But I sometimes can't help thinking about you. Yeahs. Again. Bringing this upon myself. So I sometimes wish that I'll feel numb inside, that way, all my concentration will be towards my studies. Hahaha.

-Mel
-loves
Sunday, July 16, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmmm. I've been slacking this 2 weeks! OMG! Because it's been a long week with Council Invest and all. Spent quite alot of time with my councillors these 2 weeks. Heehs. Must treasure the last few times spent together. :( Miss 'em already. Ha.

Thinking alot about loads of things. I really need motivation man. It's around 100 days to A levels. WTH. I don't think I'll have time to study! Hais. I really need to buck up. Need to strive to do well ! I want my A's. I need my A's. I want 'em badly! Mel. U can do it. Study Study Study! Mug Mug Mug! (: Come on, you can do it!!!! This is called self-motivation. How sad? I can't afford to slack!! I really can't. I'm starting to feel guilty of this pass 2 weeks. From tomorrow onwards, Mug is the only word I'll ever think of.

"It's seems that you're the only distraction. Can I just feel numb inside?..."

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, July 15, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmmm.. I'm so tired! :( This whole week has been super duper lethargic. Been having long sleeps lately. Ha. Maybe because everything seems to go so fast this whole week. Haven't been able to catch up with my studies. Gonna start mugging tomorrow. Hopefully...

I miss 6th COUNCIL! (:

Me & My complement...

Me, Eunice & Serene...


"I dreamt of you last night. So sweet. So nice. So perfect. I wish I could just feel all numb, that way, I won't feel the pain. I won't feel the heartache. But then again, I won't feel you. That'll be sad too..."

-Mel
-loves
Friday, July 14, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmmm. I'm so tired. Felt like sucha PIG today! Slept on the way to school on my mummy's car! PIG. Only had 1 lesson today which was ECONS. Slept my way through because Mr. Yap wanted us to do MCQ in groups. Heehs. Then had a long 3 period break. Slept AGAIN then. Had assembly for 2 hours which I sat till I had cramps all over. Then sat in for Grad Night Meeting for awhile then, went to accompany Char. (: Heehs. Came back to college at 4 plus to wait till 5 with CJ to meet the councillors.

Went to Mr. Tong's place for BBQ! Wooo. 6th & 7th SC BBQ! Fun Fun Fun! (: Had a good chat with Celeste on the bus. Celestine Ong, I'm here for you little girl! (: Time seemed to pass quite fast during the BBQ. Maybe because we had tons of fun! Chatting away, going CRAZY, laughing and laughing. Oh man. 6th SC is the Best. Gonna miss them TO THE CORE! Seems like Council really ends at this moment. Not that we won't keep in touch or anything. Just that all of us need to go back to the REALITY that our A'levels is in less than 4 months away. We need to MUG MUG MUG. *Hugs* to all of 6th SC. Seem to hug all of them ALOT these few days. Cos I know we won't see each other as much as we used to! Ha. 6th Council, LOVE YOU! (: By the way, thanks to the 7th Pub Co for the present. *touched. Haha. So sweet. Looking forward to see your works soon! (:

"Thanks for the effort. Thanks for the sweetness. Thanks for the fun. I love you! (: I'll miss you. You're always gonna be the ONLY ONE! (: ..."

-Mel
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Thursday, July 13, 2006

*Dreams*--> Don't know why I'm feel this way. Feeling so empty inside. Like there's a hole in my heart. Like there's no one that can fill these empty spaces. I can stop thinking about you and everything that comes with it. Mel doesn't like to be taken for granted. This grows to me feeling annoyed all the time. Maybe I brought it upon myself to feel this way. But no matter how much annoyance I feel, I try never to bring this unhappiness and annoyance upon you because I know the problem lies with me. Not you. I'm the one that's in love. I'm the one that's in this situation, I'm the one that's carrying this secret with me. It seems like you're perfect. Perfect not to say that you're flawless. Just that you're always Perfect in my eyes. The ugly, the crazy, the sweet, the funny, the silly, the cute, the weird, the spoilt, the smart, the stupid...YOU! See, I'm bringing this upon myself once more, I'm talking about you, which makes me miss you even more...
-loves


Look at the CRAZY 6th Council. This was taken yesterday. I already miss them. Heehs.
-loves
Wednesday, July 12, 2006

*Dreams*--> *phew* Investiture is over. From this moment on, we're no longer councillors. Heehs. As Su said, Council time is like a FANTASY. Now, we're back to the reality of facing our studies...as time comes, A' levels! Heehs. I wanna get my As! Today is like one of my happiest yet one of my saddest days ever. This day will stay in my memory forever. Su is right. 6th Council shares this unity and I guess we'll never meet people like us AGAIN. 6th Council has been through alot. Friendships have been forged. Memories will always stay. Haa.

At 11am, got released then rushed to Lot 1. Met Qi there to get some stuff. Then we rushed back to get ready for our rehearsals. Had to run with my court shoes on. But it didn't hurt that much, I guess I'm probably used to it. Haah. At 2 plus, Investiture started. Just want to comment to the 7th Council : Good Effort guys! Keep it up! Jiayou and push for further successes! Mr. Chai attended..ha. I was so touched! Oh ya. LEVIN SIM HENGLIAN. That dongdong bluffed me that she wasn't coming. But in the end she did to "surprise" me. Want to say a big THANK YOU to her. I simply love surprises! (: Before Investiture, I started to feel butterflies in my tummy, maybe because I'm afraid to lose this "bliss" that 6th Council has currently. Hah. Watched the video Hu Gang made! It was gr8! I could not take it and started to cry alot! Reminisced about all the things that 6th Council been through together. People around me cried too! Hahaha esp Pub Co girls. Heehs.

Would like to thanks everyone for their lovely presents and notes. To my 2 beloved Pub Co Heads, THANKS. Thanks to Qi for the cute teddy and Weisheng for his handmade Hang Ten Shirt. (: Love ya man! Watched Karmun's Video after Invest! Gr8 job done girl. Felt my Pub Co Video could not be compared. But I hope Pub Co likes it! Heehs.

Took loads of photos but want every single photo took today from every Camera! Haah. Boy am i demanding! I think it would be too difficult to thank each and every single Councillor. So here's something I want to say to all of you : I love you guys! SIMPLY THANKS!

"Whenever I'm weary, from the battles that rage in my head, you make sense of madness, when my sanity hangs by a tread. I lose my way but still you seem to understand...Through everything else...I LOVE YOU! I mean it...."

...there are somethings i will never understand...

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> This is to my dear Councillors: 6th Council. Words cannot express how much memories you have imprinted in my heart. No one can take those memories you left behind. I would like to thank all of you for being part of my life from the bottom of my heart. To all of you, I wish you all the best in your future endeavours. I'm more than happy that our paths have crossed, I hope all of us keep in touch and one day reminisce about all the CRAZY things we did together. This bond we share is stronger than any bond that no one can ever break. 6th Council, not only have you been my inspiration, my friend but most of all the people I admire most. Love all of you! *Tears*


Today would be the last day as a councillor. But as Mr. Tong says.. Once a Councillor, Always a Councillor. While writing this, tears are rolling down my eyes. I don't know why. I already miss 6th Council. They've touched me so much. I feel so comfortable being around them. Maybe I'm scared that this "blissful happiness" of 6th Council being together would go away. Maybe I'm scared that this would all just end in an instant. I know that this stepping down has to happen, just...How am i to face it? ...

To the 7th Council, All the best. You have all my blessings! (:

Pub Co! I love you! To the max! Pub Co was hanging out together today doing our DIY gifts. Heehs. It was so fun! But I felt that I was sacrificing myself! Hahaha. All thanks to Zhaoqi & Ser for their CRAZY ideas. Still, I had fun laughing and laughing. Guess we're only left with these few moments to spend together. I'll truly miss all of them. Pub Co completes me man! Pub Co rocks. Hope to have outings often. Hmmm. I love Pub Co! I love Eunice, Weisheng, Serene, Jensen, Jieshi, Hugang, Yixin and Zhaoqi! (:


Awww.. Those memories.. I will never forget! :(

Oooo. Investiture is tomorrow! Whoa! So fast. Haa. Busy these few days. I passed my Math. Retrogressed from a A-B grade to an E. How sad right? Still, at least I passed. Still waiting for Econs results. Ha. I'm feeling the stress. Feeling the HEAT! Gotta start mugging hard again. MUG MUG MUG.

"There are somethings that I'll never know. Then again, Thanks for putting a smile on my face. For making my heart beat fast. For creating butterflies in my tummy. For making me so head over heels CRAZY!"

-Mel - 6th Council FOREVER!
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Monday, July 10, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmmm. DISAPPOINTED. I feel like crying so badly. But I don't want to. I must learn how to control my tears. Inside of me there's a certain fear, demoralized feeling that makes me feel like breaking down. The stress level is high. I've been relaxing this past week which results in guilt. A levels is less than 120 days away! I did badly for Mid-years. The worst thing is that my strongest subject - Math was poorly done. I feel worst than horrible because I think I've disappointed Ms. Lee. I was shocked by my results and so were my friends. I felt to ashamed out of no particular reason. Don't wish to express this shame and disappointment to my friends because I know they are facing their own hurdles too. Oh ya, not forgetting Chem. 1% to pass! I was like "WTF" when I received my paper. I studied super hard for it but it seems that the careless bug in me is striking once more. I've got to BUCK UP. I need to. I want As for my A levels. And I believe I can! I shouldn't lose confidence in myself, instead, I should let each ordeal make me a stronger and more determined individual! Mel, you can do it!

"Trying to find my own motivation"

Yesterday was a gr8 day! Hi 5 came over to sleep overnight at my place. We did do much, just chatted, watched movies and watched World Cup! Ha. I wanted France to win but it didn't! Heehs. Nevermind I guess. We had fun lazing around making fun of each other. Totally love that kind of atmosphere. Felt so relaxed. Qi slept with my Mashimaro. Haa. He looked so cute! Ying was so in love sleeping on my hubby - Garfield! They kept calling me a yellow banana cos' my blanket was yellow. *Diao.. Hahaha. We had FUN! Love them!

Woke up this morning and realize we were all PIGS! We were actually late for school even though school started at 9am instead of 8am. Heehs. I was rushing to check if they left anything, but guess what? I left my handphone at home! Felt super insecure in school. So I had to rely on Felicia's phone. Ha. Thanks Fel. Went to school with a happy mood, but when I got to school it all changed...It was like a heavy stormy clouds covering the sun. Had no appetite to do or listen to absolutely anything.

Went out with Hi 5 to celebrate Xin's birthday! She must have been touched! We got her a nice cake from Secret Recipe in which the icing was so pretty! Hahaha. I chose the cake! (: Heehs. We ate at the glass house at Fish & Co. Made Xin paiseh by making her stand on the chair while everyone sang the birthday song! Haha. It was fun though. We ordered cocktails that tasted disgusting! Hehs. Mine tasted disgusting at first but the taste got better once I got used to it. I ordered Passionade - Passion Fruit with Vodka. Yummy! Xin forced us to eat a huge portion of her Cheesy Birthday Cake which made us so Full! Had alot of FUN. We even mixed our cocktails together to try this weird taste. Haha. Guess the weird taste resulted in this killer headache I have now! Wooo! Today was gr8 despite all the ordeals in school!

*Seems like everything is all worthwhile. I can't believe through these times, it has always been just ONLY YOU. I love you!*

-Mel
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Saturday, July 08, 2006

*Dreams*-->

Sometimes you make me smile.
Sometimes you make me cry.
Sometimes you make my heart skip a beat.
Sometimes you make butterflies in my tummy.
Sometimes you are unpredictable.
Sometimes you can be just too predictable.
Sometimes you're just a sweetie pie.
Sometimes you're as mean as the rest.
Sometimes you give me surprises.
Sometimes you give me fears.
Sometimes you give me worries
Sometimes you give me tears.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> *Phew* I'm so tired! Having muscle-aches all over! My wrist still hurts! My head too! Because of my mischief, Yixin's two front teeth banged into my head. Hurts till now! But it was rather funny though!

Been reaching home pretty late recently! Went to town yesterday with Pub Co to shop! A short one. Because we had to rush back to rehearsals at school at 3. Me, Eunice & Yixin were all late! Haha. Qi was the earliest! Rehearsals were alright. But no matter how tiring I know I am, I love my COUNCILORS. (:

I don't know I'm quite frustrated about things happening these few days. But I hope I won't think about it too much. Hmmm. I'm quite sad that school is starting soon! Haha. 3 out of 5 days are gone! Oh man!

*mesmerized*

-Mel
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Friday, July 07, 2006

*Dreams*--> Today was NICE! Heehs. Went East Coast with Ying, Xin, Chenjie, Qi, Char, Lynn, Fel, Christine, Mag & Jas! Blading! My first time! I was sucha blunder! Seriously! Thanks to all of them for accomodating to a BONGBONG like me! Thanks for their patience & understanding yups! (: Heehs. Special thanks to Charchar for her "stress" to push me to do better & Zhaoqi for accompanying me esp. when I feel so insecure, and using Mc. Flurry to motivate me! Haha! Thanks Qi! (: Hmmm. Cried quite abit today esp. when I fell and injured my wrist! Super paiseh lah! Cos I was sitting on the road side for like awhile! My wrist still hurts till now. But don't worry, I still can use MSN! (: Haah. Joke! Like this outing! Hi 5 + Combined s09 cliques outing! (: FUN FUN FUN! (:

The journey to East Court was a rough journey! First, me and Chenjie had to wait for Char, Lynn and Fel. Hmmm, when finally we were on the train together going there. Once we reached Bugis, I was like.."Ahhh! I lost my Ez Link Pouch!". So we had to rush back to Cityhall to look for it. Think its God's Grace that I found it! Wooo! Felt really guilty cos we told Qi we'll meet him in 15 mins. He ended up waiting for an hour! So guilty! Sorry! I know i'm clumsy! Ha!

Hi 5 went to town after that. The bus journey was so tiring. We were like pigs lah! Went to eat Pepper Lunch! My first time! It was yummy! (: Went shopping awhile then we went to Starbucks awhile. Wherever we go we just laugh and laugh like CRAZY DONGDONGS! Hahaha. Funny! Lols.

"Butterflies in my tummy!"

-Mel
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

*Dreams*--> Yeay! Exams are finally over! Taking a break before I start mugging hard again for A levels. I really hope I do better in my Chem this time since that has been what I've been focusing on. Econs can be a goner already. However, I'll be sad if I fail it! Yesterday was my Econs Paper 2. Horrible paper!! Hais.

Went to Causeway and ate Pastamania after our exams! The girls had a good chat and laugh. Felt so relaxed. But didn't really feel the "after-exams-thrill". Maybe because we know that soon after, we've gotta mug for our A's!! Went to watch Superman Returns. It was so nice! Super duper nice! Heehs. Much better than other movies I've watched! Heehs. Yups. Superman is handsome! But I still like James Marsden! If you guys didn't know, he's actually Cyclops from X-men! He's still the best. Hahaha. Me and CharChar took crazy pictures with Superman posters! Haha. So dumbdumb!


Me & my Super Hero! Cheezzee! What's with my smile man! Haha.

I don't like Bad Guys!! Hfmph!

Went to meet Jason near his place and we walked from his place to Anchorpoint! Just to get some stuff from 7/11. Wah! Didn't know the distance was so short, cause it seemed really LONG! Hahaha. Then, went to Chinatown meet Jennyang to eat. (:

Have Council Rehearsals today! Hmmm. Tired. Ha...

I miss Sim Heng Lian. She's a big DONG DONG!

-Mel


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Monday, July 03, 2006

*Dreams*--> In my last post I wrote..."I miss Jenny & Jas"... and guess what? Just came back from supper with them! (: Ha. Yay! It was really fun! Jason drove! And I was like...So COOL! Hahaha. Thought about 3 years ago, how determined he was to get his license. Now, he's driving me around! Lols. They wanted me to feel how it was like to be driven by JASON! Hahaha. It was gr8! I had a blast! (:

-Mel
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Sunday, July 02, 2006

*Dreams*--> Been slacking these 3 days. De-stress mode. Don't feel like touching my books. I'm left with tomorrow to study for ECONS! I feel so guilty! Heehs. I miss college. As in college life.. class and all except GP lesson! Hah.

I miss Jenny & Jas! Wanna meet up with them soon! Hopefully!

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> I'm so tired! I've been out the past two days! Shopping! It's a girl's thing man! Hahahaha. Actually not true. Guys enjoy it as much as girls do! Heehs. Yesterday..mass shopping spree with Char, Today..shopping was Jiemei - CJ! Ha went around the whole far east looking for my bag! Mmm. couldn't find it but i guess it's alright. I can always try next time! Felt so touched cos' we practically went to every store to take a look. Awww!

Mmmm. This week has been full of stress. Totally! Guess my expectations of myself are too high. I really want to improve and do well this time! And I believe I can do it. Hopefully! Heehs.

"I'm glad! Thanks."

-Mel
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Saturday, July 01, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hahaha. MOST of my exams are over. Left with Econs Paper 1 & 2. Wow! Hahaha. But I'm so happy! Cos the stressful-ness is gone! Heehs. Went shopping yesterday! Ah. at last, a long awaited desire! Total shopping spree man. Bought 2 skirts. Heehs. But i think it ain't enough! I need to shop more!! Hahaha. Meeting CJ later to out. Hopefully I can shop for more stuff yups!? Heehs! Met Hi 5 yesterday at night! Zhisen was there too! Hahaha. Our conversations were so entertaining. Zhisen is a super duper comedian lah! Ha. Enjoyed the night. We were more of chilling out. Relaxing after the exams. Felt so relaxed and satisfied just for the moment. Ahhh. It felt good! (:

I gave it a try! (:

-Mel
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