its STRONGER than DEATH


Thursday, June 29, 2006

*Dreams*--> Ahhh! I'm feeling the stress once more. So afraid I won't do well for chem due to my careless-ness! I'm sucha CARELESS-nut!

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> One down. 2 more to go! I can't wait for my exams to be over. Well.. I can't wait for A levels to be over, that's for sure. But I think I'll definately miss PJC! Did so many crazy things there. I do mean CRAZY! College is like my 2nd home! Heehs.

Just finish Math paper today! Hurray! Left with Chem MCQ and Paper 2. And Econs MCQ and Paper 2. Right. But I so happy cos all the super long papers are over. Yay! I had crisis in the morning, came to school and my eyes started to irritate me! Then the bell rang, had to run to the locker, get my contacts solution and case and run to the parade square. WOW! At least my eyes didn't irritate me when I was doing my paper. Math Paper 2 was alright. So much better than Paper 1 lah! I wanna mug mug really hard esp. for Chem Paper 2. Chem is the subject I study the most and love the most after Math. Heehs.

Hmmm. I only have Econs MCQ and Paper 2 next week! Yay! After that its 5 days of holiday for me! Heehs. 5 days is nothing compared to the J1s. They have like more than a week of holiday! So lucky! SAM is so lucky! Even though there're so many days, I predict its gonna be a busy week for me. There's gonna be loads of investiture rehearsals. The good thing is that at least I'll be with my Councillors. Gonna treasure the last moments together. Love them! 6th Council..Mwah!!

Life is so ironic. You know how you get so ANGRY with people because of their attitude towards you? Or like you feel you're taken for granted by someone? When wonder this - They treating you like that is merely like you treating someone else the same way. Sometimes I feel my expectations are too high and I do feel taken for granted sometimes, but as I begin to reflect, I admit treating certain people the same way, so what gives me the right to be ANGRY about anything? But then again, I'll definately learn from my reflections. I don't want the people around me esp. those that I care about to feel neglected in any way, I don't promise i'll be there all the time but I'll definately promise to try! (:

Ahhh. Been thinking alot. Seriously miss you. I mean it. But.. I guess there's nothing I can change or try changing. So...WHATEVER lah!

-Mel
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Wednesday, June 28, 2006

*Dreams*--> The worse is over. Ahh. I'm so glad. I really am!! Chemistry was alright. But I'm so angry with myself for choosing the wrong either or question. I chose the OR question cos it looks simpler. The word is LOOKS. Omg. Then after the exam, Fel told me that the EITHER question was so much easier. Ahs. Blame myself for being lazy to look at the questions thoroughly! Ahhh. Dumb me! Hmmm. Could have gotten more marks. Argh. But I still hope I do well. It's the best Chem paper I've ever done so far. So Cheerios!!

Econs. Ahhh. It was alright. First time I didn't have blister. All thanks to my miracle pen that lynn introduced to me. Heehs. Had 15 mins to slack. Felt kinda "Die! Is there something wrong with me?" Cos everyone else was writing so urgently. Don't really have confidence regarding ECONS. Cos basically half of what I wrote was on-the-spot thinking. Hais. I think I deserve it if i fail. Seriously. But still hope I pass. Totally love the chapter on Trade. Cos I can crap alot. Lols.

Tomorrow is Math Paper 2. Mmmm. I better do well for this paper. So i can keep my grade to at least a B. Yesterday's paper was horrible. Hais. Mug Mug Mug!

So into the mood of studying now. I'm happy because at least dooms day is over. I was so furious for the college to put Chem Paper 3 and Econs paper 3 together. It's like SO killing us lah! But I understand that they need to follow the A level timetable. Den why must MOE put those 2 papers on the same day! *hfmph. More than furious.

Exams are finishing soon! Yay!! 3 more papers more to go! Yay!! (: Hope I'll do well. Hope I'll do well. Oh please!!

"I'm givin myself one more try!

-Mel
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Tuesday, June 27, 2006

*Dreams*--> Math was sucha killer. It's the worse paper i ever did. And Math is my best subject. Arh. Was so demoralized. Tomorrow is going to be the most tiring day ever. Econs Essay Paper & Chemistry Paper 3. Whoa. Stressed lah!

I gave it away.

-Mel
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Monday, June 26, 2006

*Dreams*--> Ahhhhhhhhh!!!!! That's all I feel like doing. Ahhhhhhhhhhhh!! Tomorrow marks the start of the mid-years. No confidence. I'm so afraid. Hais.

Oh man. Lot of thoughts in my head, can't seem to get them out. I can't afford to distract myself now. Maybe these thoughts are contributing to this killer headache of mine. Having slight fever now. Right. One day before exams. How comforting.

Whatever.

-Mel
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Sunday, June 25, 2006

*Dreams*--> Right. It would be a lie if i said I wasn't stressed now. I freaked out today! Totally. Didn't know if I should study ECONS or CHEM. Then I started pestering Lynn, Fel and CJ. I think I was kind of a nuisance. Sorry guys. It's "amazing" how stress can turn you to be sucha freak. Now. I'm kind of clueless on my Revision these few days. I'm quite done with all my subjects. But the same problem just occurs. I'm afraid. Exams seem to be a deep fear for me esp. because of all the outcomes. It seems like after every single exam taken in PJC, tears just roll down my eyes, because of disappointment. It sometimes feels that no matter how much effort I put in, the outcome is till the same. Though a major part of me tells myself that I shouldn't give up, that this time...I can do it! But it still doesn't deny my disappointment I've faced in the past. Ahh. Don't worry. I'm not breaking down!

Received a Council Relay message today: The 7th SC is using the SC room from Monday onwards. I was like Whoa! I already miss the room! Time spent there. All the laughters, joys, tears and "ugly sights" are only a memory now. I remembered hiding under the table cos' of a cockroach! The guys were all laughing. Dong Dong! Khalis even took a photo!! 7th SC, take care of the beloved COUNCIL ROOM alright? Die! I miss council already. Investiture is a week after exams! 6th SC forever!!

Think my friends are really a blessing to me. Whenever I need them, they seem to be there. Though there are not many that truely understand me through and through but I appreciate how they try to understand me as much as they can. (: It's heartwarming to know that no matter how down and whatever bad state you're in, there are people there that will lift you up, let you cry on their shoulders, give you a warm cuddle and tell you "Everything's gonna be alright!". Though I don't say it much but THANKS.

I decided that I can't get myself distracted anymore for the rest of the year. I really got to pay full focus to my studies to be able to do well for my A's. This should be my main goal for now. Seriously. I'm already a geek ... A GEEK IN THE PINK! Mel is not gonna be distracted anymore! *promise..

My Jiemei told me something inspiring today.. Jiemei said that since I have one heart, that one heart should be given to one person only. You can't share it with anyone else. Made sense to me. But I realize something..I gave my heart away a long time ago!

-Mel

"Faith is believing.."
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Friday, June 23, 2006

*Dreams*--> Ah. Down with One chapter of ECONS left. *phew. I feel worried about the rest of my subjects because I'm afraid I might forget everything. I pray not thou. Hmmm...

Went back to school to study today! Hmmm. After that met Shan to watch "Just my luck". Think the show is rather nice but just no climax. Heehs. Oh yah. Happy news. Jason passed his driving test! Congrats to him! Hahaha. Happy for him. (:

Okay I'm tired. Lots of emotions.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Stressed! Oh man! Telling myself not to feel so stressed up. That's what I'm telling my friends too. (: But I know its unavoidable. We're all feeling it. All the J2s. You can't blame us, it's the A levels we're talking about here.

*phew. Finally started on my ECONS yesterday. I'm left with 4 days left to study Econs. I'm done with One chapter and stuck with half of another Chapter. Left with 1 and a half Chapters left. Hmmm. Hope I can finish studying all that by the weekend so I can revise Math on Mon. (:
Then again, I'm worried about my Chemistry. Everyone knows how much time I spend on Chem, but I don't seem to have confidence that I'll do well or to say it bluntly, pass the exam. But still, I'll not give up, confidence is a built up. I'm going to strive in order to get that confidence in myself for the upcoming A levels. My worst fear is having a black out during my Chemistry Paper. Kinda scary, right?

SO feel like shopping. But I guess... that feeling of mine has just gotta wait till my exams are over and done with. :)

"Alright..I'm not angry anymore..Cos' I just miss you too much"

-Mel
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Wednesday, June 21, 2006

*Dreams*--> Omg! The NOKIA N73 is super nice! (: It's not out yet thou. Will be lauching around Aug-Sep. Just in time to convince my parents to buy it for my Birthday! Heehs! (: Ooops. I feel so bad. But the phone is super nice lah! Don't mind a Motorola Razor V3 too. The hot pink or black one. Hah!

My heart bled today.

-Mel
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Tuesday, June 20, 2006

*Dreams*--> Wth. Annoyed. Argh. Nevermind.. That person is not even worth it!

Today was Math Mock Exam. The whole exam was kind of slack. Honestly, arrived late for the paper and yet I could finish & slack at the same time. It's time to set the standards high for myself. Ms. Lee told me that there is no excuse that I shouldn't get an A for Mid-years. She says a B is not acceptable. I was like.. What duh? I'm so careless. I'm so afraid I would disappoint her. But then again, I appreciate her thoughtfulness for pushing me to the limit! (:

Went for Tuition, was so stressed as Mr. Chan was going through Intensive Revision. Wooo. I'm so afraid that all the things I have studied are forgotten. Aw. Worried! Think I have to keep on revising this week. Starting on ECONS tmr. Horrid man! Haha. I don't like ECONS. :( *cries..

Met Jason for dinner today! So felt like watching "She's the man" today but somebody didn't want to watch! Hais. We planned to eat at Foster's Grill but we ended up eat Crystal Jade. Haha. From so Engl-eesh to Chee-neese. Haha. Yeahs. Nvm. Foster's Grill shall wait. I really want to try eating there. The ambience there is like so nice lah! (:

Bumped into Val. It's been like a thousand years since I saw her. Aww.. Hope we can catch up soon! Half way when I was eating, Jeremy called me to look out of the restaurant. There he was..Aw... :)

-Mel

Like I said. I'm just disappointed. Aiya. Forget it. I give up already.
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Monday, June 19, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmmm. I love the show GREEN FOREST, MY HOME. It's so Fairy Tale! (: I think it has become one of my favourite shows. I finished watching the whole series in 1 day! That's a record breaker. (:

Hmmm. Tired. Have almost finish studying for Chem & Math. Left with Econs & 2 chapters of Chemistry. Aw man. 7 days left to study. Mmmm. I'm so scared I'll forget what I study so I'll do constant revision during this whole week.

Melissa CHAR is a DONGDONG!

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Seriously exhausted. I just hope these 5 months would go by quickly. I hope its goes by with much productivity. I'm tired. But I won't give up. Chem revision is almost done. Math in 3/4 through. Oh man. What about Econs? I don't want to go through the disappointment of studying so hard and yet scoring not up to expectation because truthfully I don't want to disappoint those who believe in me.

I'm so afraid. This week better be the most productive one for me. The past week was quite productive. Hope there's an improvement!! Hmmm..

Council is stepping down in 2 week. Mmmm. Reminisce...


Empty Spaces....


Me & my Beloved COMPLEMENT! Alvin is just gr8!! Complements always!!

-Mel
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Saturday, June 17, 2006

*Dreams*--> I know some things can't be forced. Is it even worth pursuing?


*Bleeding from my eyes as a reflection of what's felt in the heart*

-Mel
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Friday, June 16, 2006

*Dreams*--> ENGLAND won! Hahaha. Yay! The match was aiight. Beckham is as handsome as ever! Ha. Met Henglian today. Went to Tea Garden! It was fun studying with her. I just didn't feel like going to college today. Ha. Tea Garden seems to be a common place for JC people to study. There were people from other JCs like HCI, CJC, JJC. Right. Bumped into some Pioneers too. (:

Blah. Been doing Intensive Math. Cool. I love MATH. I love CHEM too! But I don't ike ECONS! Right.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Right. Just finishing studying. Well. At least I finish Stats today! Hmmm. Intensive Math again tomorrow. Not intending to go college thou. I just realized that my attention span is improving. Now I can study until 1 am! Haha. That's good. Means I can burn more mid-night oil in time to come!

Watching World CUP. England's Match. Heehs. Somehow I prefer to watch BRAZIL play! Hahaha. Thou I predict that Germany's gonna win this year. Bcos' BRAZIL has never won in a European Country & home ground support is a HUGE advantage for Germany.

I'm disappointed in you.

-Mel
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Thursday, June 15, 2006

*Dreams*--> Was doing Intensive Math in school today. Was so stressed that I got pissed with whatever I was doing. Had craving for Blueberry Waffle so I rushed out of college to get it immediately. Hmmm. I feel like putting all my focus on my studies but sometimes I just get distracted too easily.Hais.

Moody. Don't mess with me!!

-Mel
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Wednesday, June 14, 2006

*Dreams*--> Right. I'm so tired. Think that my productivity today was not as good as the past 2 days. Bcos' when I reach college in the morning, Councillors had to clear up our "junk" from the council room. It's weird seeing the council room so neat now. Took loads of photos of Council room. I'll remember miss the Council Room. All the laughs, smiles & cries. Everytime I don't feel "right", I'll always go to Council Room cos' I just feel so at home around my councillors. Hmmm. I won't have to say to my friends, "Eh, you all go first, I'm going to Council room, meet y'all later" anymore. I won't have a place to put my stuff whenever I'm carrying my laptop or just lazy to carry my bag or a place to put my bag when I'm having PE. I won't have a place where I know I'm at home with my beloved councillors. I won't have a place to gather or just hangout with my fellow councillors. Right. I'm missing the room already. Loads of memories I'll never forget. :(

I found out the TEAM PJC Banner & PJC Flags I painted is gone! I was like "Ahhh!" Sad for awhile. But after thinking about it, I felt alright. Thanks to the hug Alvin gave me! (: I thought that the TEAM PJC banner I painted would be a legacy I left to my juniors. But I guess it's alright.

Went to LT4 today to check up on the 7th Council. Hahaha. Actually, me & xin just wanted to take a look at our investiture video last year. Oh man. I felt our entry was so cool. Hahaha. I remember how long we actually took to rehearse just to make everything turn out okay. I so wanna get all the videos from Hu gang! :)

There's just so many so many things I want to tell to each and every councillor, but I don't know where to start. All I can say is that, this journey that we've embarked on has been a unforgettable one. You guys have created more than just an impact, more like an earthquake in my heart. Leaving more than just a footprint but many many thousands of them in this heart of mine. What can i say man? 6th Council I totally love!! Okay, if i continue, tears might just run down my eyes anytime. I'm serious...I love you guys! *cries*

At around 3 plus, I left college thinking that I would meet Jason immediately. But he insisted to go home to change so I went to Tea Garden to study. It's been so long since I've studied there. Hahaha. Was weird but nonetheless the place was really condusive. Managed to study quite a bit there. Heh. Jason said he'd meet me at 5. Then at 4.45, he told me that I should wait patiently, cos' he's still on his way home. I was thinking how was that possible cos' at 3.30 he told me he was on the way home already! I even asked him if he was kidding & he said he wasn't. And you know what? He bluffed me!! When I came back from the toilet at around 5.10. I saw this person sitting at my table. I was like...WHAT!? He bluff me lor!!! We chatted till 6 plus then we went to eat Tze Cha at Bukit Timah. Went there thinking that we were going to eat Chilli Crab but ended up eating Fish head curry which in the beginning I had a craving for, because we didn't want to dirty our hands cracking the crab. It was like so damn off, cos' we felt it was so weird for 2 people to eat Tze Cha. Haha. It kept me laughing quite a bit. Lols. He said everytime he comes out with me, he eats too much!! So not my fault lah! Hahaha. Dinner was fun. Miss Jennyang. (: Miss those days when we used to eat Tze Cha so OFTEN lah!

Right. I'm going do intensive Math tomorrow. I'm so tired now. Don't know why. Right. Maybe going to sleep or maybe I'll call Charchar. (: Inspired to DRIVE bcos' of Mr. Ng. Hahaha. BMW 5 Series!!

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Unforgotten Memories..
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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmmmm. Tuesday! Tuition day. Went out for lunch at Ajisen Ramen with Jiemeis - Chenjie. Heehs. Love to dine with CJ cos' it seems like the things we talk about are endless. Can express my thoughts and opinions freely. (: Mmm. After tuition, went out for dinner with Family. *yawn* Came back around 9 then started to study till now. Taking a short break now before my mind blows up. Yups. (:

Going back to school tomorrow for council and to study! Yups. Mel is now a geek. Geek in the PINK! Hahahaha!

Rights. Missing you.

-Mel (:
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Monday, June 12, 2006

*Dreams*--> I'm so PROUD of myself! Think I studied around 7-8 hrs today. I know its no big deal but it's definately an improvement.

Trying my very best not to think of him.

Off to sleep.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Hmmm. Today is a start of a brand new beginning! Taking a different approach to my studies, actually more like putting more focus on my studies. Heehs. Well. I think the productivity of work done in school is improving. I'm quite satisfied with myself. Hope everything will be smooth these 2 weeks. So at least I'll be able to my best for my Midyears.

I don't want any distractions. I can't do work with you in my head. I'm trying to be as ignorant as possible. Right. Like that would help. Ha.

Ha. Okays. I'm off to my books. Check out below - I likes. (:

-Mel

Taken during Pub Co outing 8/6/06
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Sunday, June 11, 2006


*Dreams*--> Yixin is right. Afraid to love. More afraid to lose. I guess once you love someone so much, it would hurt even more to lose them. Wow. I'm disappointed with myself about my discipline lately. I haven't been muggin' much these 4 days. I easily get distracted with my thoughts. Goodness! What's wrong with me? Where has all the motivation gone too. I'm so disappointed with myself! Now. No matter what, I'm telling myself, "NO MEL! NO DISTRACTIONS!" Trying my best to reject day outings. Outings to go on meals are alright becos' after all, one's gotta eat right?

I miss those carefree days. Remembered how fun it was during last year's June holidays. Just holidays, no commitments. Aw man. Council Meetings were so exciting & facinating. Nevermind, I shall create a new excitement. I'm intending to study in school everyday these 2 weeks to accompany Limin & also focus all of my energy on my studies.. Guess I only can concentrate best there. (: Alrighties. NO DISTRACTIONS NOW! Hahaha.

Went to catch Da Vinci Code AGAIN today with Jennyang & Lingfang. It was kind of fun, watching the movie again didn't create that much adrenaline in me, however it was still enjoyable. Definately gonna buy the DVD. Heehs. (: Don't worry, I don't believe in the facts written in the book. U shouldn't too! My church gave out this "Da Vinci : Seperating FACT from FICTION". The truth is that Dan Brown created fiction through FACTS with alot of spice on top of it. Ha. Met Jason after that, It's been quite a while since I've seen them. So I'm kinda happy! (:

Alrights. Off to my books. I love. I cherish. I treasure. Please don't get the wrong idea.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Life is such an irony. Even though you may know someone for a long period of time, impressions of them change as friendship blossoms. Some may be good, some bad. However, whether or not the relationship may change is totally up to those who are in it. It doesn't mean that this change in others limits you to having some kind of relationship with them. People shouldn't be so superficial, looking at things at the surface, after all, isn't what's inside that's most important??

-Mel
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Saturday, June 10, 2006

*Dreams*-->



Reflections of your love have come to withered...
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*Dreams*--> Hmmm. Saturday! Tuition day! Went shoppin' for awhile today with Char. Bought Charles & Keith Sandals today! Yeay! I think they're nice + got 30% discount. Heehs. Miss Shoppin'. But I know if I shop for long hours, I'll feel really guilty. Ha.

Tried to stop thinking about him today. I don't want to be distracted anymore! I need to MUG MUG MUG. Gonna mug in school for the whole week next week. Hopefully that helps.

Aw. I'm so sleepy now. Going to have an early night. (:

I miss him.

-Mel
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Friday, June 09, 2006

*Dreams*--> Some Chalet Photos! (: Ahaha. 6th SC ROCKS.


Right. *Smirks..Guess who that is?


Me & Suzzie! He's doing his signature pose!! (: Rockopolo!


Me & my beloved Complement! (: Alvin ROCKS!

Love playing with Sparkers. (:


6th SC Exco with Mr. Tong! (:

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Pictures Uploaded. Wooo! (:

I took this from Serene's Blog. Yup. Weisheng's DETERMINATION to open the treasure chest.


Pub Co girls doing crazy STUNTS. Hahahaha.


Two Pub Co Heads. Unintentionally doing the same thing! Lols.


Don't you think we look COOL?

There are loads of pictures. Guess I needa tidy up. I won't upload everything thou. Just the ones I like. Hahaha! (:

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Thought I would wake up today to attend Chem Class in the morning. Heehs. But I guess I was too tired. Slept till now - 11 am. Meeting Limin at Lot 1 for lunch & going school to study! Hees. Yeay! Need to do some serious mugging right now. After a whole day of playing and doing crazy things, its inevitable that I feel guilty for not muggin' enough. Jason was like.. "What? You're in East Coast?" I so knew that he was going to scold me!! :(

I totally love yesterday. Bcos' I know that no matter what councillors do together, we make sure we have a BLAST! Heehs. I still want to take many many pictures with them!! (: Councillors, these memories will never be forgotten! I LOVE Y'ALL!

Listening to "Here without you" right now. All these while, many thoughts have been in my head. I can't even figure why I'm having these thoughts. The only time I forget about them is when I'm having fun with the councillors. Maybe because having fun with them makes me feel so carefree at times! These thoughts are dangerous because I know if I continue thinking about them, I won't be able to concentrate fully on my studies. But how can i ever control these feelings/thoughts in my head. It seems to be in whirl. Like a difficult Math problem in my head that I can never get to understand. Burning questions yearning for answers. But I don't think anyone can give me answers. Not even the leader of all these thoughts in the first place! Can't even get what I'm feeling now. Sad? Not really? Don't think I'm scared either. Maybe I'm a mix of sadness, fear, uncertainty and confusion which leads to FRUSTRATION. Many might say all I'm thinking about now maybe dumb. But dumb it may be, its was contributed from my observations, I just simply miss those days, where everything was so carefree, SMILES were all around. Laughter filled the air. And whenever I looked into his eyes, I fully trusted him and could leave my happiness in his hands.

Those days were nice. That was a blessing. (: Well, they say life is a like a BOX of Chocolates. You never know what you're gonna get. However, no matter how life is UNPREDICTABLE, treasure the special times.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> *yawns* I'm so tired. Yet I feel like typing an entry. Hmmm. Today was super duper FUN in Sentosa & at the Chalet! Wooo. I felt so carefree walking at the beach looking at the moon. Far away from the stress that I have to face everyday muggin'. When I was about to leave and waved goodbye to the councillors, it felt so surreal that an end of our term is about to come, there were tears in my eyes. I love them all so much. I can seriously say that I'm comfortable talkin' to each and every one of my councillors. (: I regret not knowing alot of them better. I guess time is too short to do TOO MANY THINGS. Finally saw my Complement today! It's been 2 wks since I've seen him & it feels so heart-warming just seeing him again! I love Alvin! (: Hahaha!

Pub Co went to Sentosa to play today! At first, Me, Qi & Ser joined Su and the rest for Frisbee! Kokyong & Qi were in my team! Ahaha! I think the game was good! (: Then, Me, Ser, Weisheng & Eunice went around sight-seeing! We went to sit on the SENTOSA LUGE! Weisheng sure loved it. Heehs. (: It was so fun!! I love the ride! Wooo!! After that, Yixin & Qi joined us to walk around. We starting taking super crappy photos! Hahaha! Pub Co I love. Feel that the outing next time should be LONGER. Must plan soon. After MIDYEARS or something! (: Will upload the photos soon! Trying to figure how to work my Bro's Digi-Cam. But don't worry! I'm not that dumb! Hahaha.Took a cab to the Chalet with Qi, Weisheng & Yixin. (: Then, some of us started the fire. I was so intrigued by how the fire was set up! Was asking Jie what was the whole science behind it. Lols. Had fun! Then Me and Teckmeng was the ones cooking the SATAY! I had so much fun flipping the Satay! Lols. If all goes bad.. I'll consider that as one of my job careers. Hahaha. Hopefully NEVER. Actually SERIOUSLY NEVER!

The Bbq was good. (: Admit I didn't eat much, maybe because I didn't feel that hungry at all. (: Heehs. Some of us took a walk at the beach. It was gr8! But I regret not staying at the beach for a longer time. I miss the view there. Heehs. After that, Council played with Sparkles and did CRAZY things together. Taking CRAZY photos. Awww. I love today!! I'm going to miss 6th Council Alot!!! (:

Hmmm. Right. Enough bout today! I'll upload the photos soon. They always say that a picture says a thousand words! Heehs. Talked to Jas just now. Aw. I haven't seen him since College Day!! Heehs. Miss Jas & Jenny! (: Hope to see them soon.

*I'm so confused. I can't get myself out of this confusion. Maybe i'm just oversensitive. Feel so sad. I miss those times together. How carefree things used to be. Now everything just seems complicated...

-Mel
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Wednesday, June 07, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmm. I'm happy! Cos' my brother found his old lao-pok Digi-cam and lent it to me! Even thou it's lao-pok, I hope it works well. Better off than me wasting money on film. Hope to take loads of pictures tomorrow! Yeay!! Love PUB. Love COUNCIL! Hahahahaha.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Just finish studying. *yawn*. Have class tmr. Heehs. I haven't been to college in 4 days. So yups, I miss PJC alr. Hahaha. Right. Maybe I took too long to notice something about myself, I cry very easily. It's due to the contribution of me being too emotional and how easily touched and soft-hearted I am. Awww.

Chat with Char early this morning. I was telling her all the CRAZY ideas I had. Ahahaha. Told her I could write a book about them. Lols. From the time I was Sec 3, I was blabbering about writing a book. But everytime I say I want to write a book, it seems like its on different contents. Hahahaha. That's FUNNY!

Right now is 00.52am. Zz. Not very sleepy yet. Studied quite alot today. But I hope to be on this pace. Can't afford to slack right now. Left with 2 and 1/2 weeks and Thurs is my PLAYDAY! PLAY with Council! Wooo! (: Looking forward to it. Yups.

I have alot of things in my mind. Maybe i'm like that. I choose not to say things I don't want to say. Though I know there are people I can share them with, there' s only one person I'm willing to tell everything to - you.


6th Council. LOVE. LOVE. LOVE. (: Unforgotten MEMORIES...

-Mel
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006

*Dreams*--> Enjoyed all the chats with Jie. Ahh.. It was so funny! (: Jiemeis forever man! (: Hahaha. Ahh. Called Alvin Today. Haven't seen him like almost 2 weeks. *Goodness. Miss my complement! (: He's gr8! (:

Some photos taken yesterday!

Me & The Birthday BOY! (:

You know sometimes when you just can't stop yourself from thinking about someone, have you ever wondered if they knew you were thinking about them? It's uncontrollable definately but isn't a waste of brain juices to think and think and THINK and all you can do is say "Ahhh. Right. What's the point?" It's just so tiring..

There's are many places which I've been that leave me unforgettable. Maybe because of you? I don't know.. I feel disappointed.

-Mel


-loves

*Dreams*--> Yeay! Don't know why I'm quite Happy today. Ooo. Maybe there are endorphines in me. Heehs... (:

-Mel (:
-loves
Monday, June 05, 2006

*Dreams*--> Didn't go Seoul. Went to Sakae instead. Hmmm. Haven't eaten sushi in a while so this time was a good time to satisfy that craving of mine. (: The last time was when I ate Suki with Qi & Songhoe! We took so many crazy videos and photos today. Ahaha. Happy 18th Birthday to DANIEL! Sorry I didn't go to your house to surprise you. My Bad. Ha. Yeah. Kris came! Haven't seen her in a week. It's good that she enjoyed herself during Pre-U Sem. Baobao & Kelvin were there too, it's been ages since I saw them. Hah.

Ate for like 2 hours plus then we started to walk around for awhile. Don't know why I just didn't have the mood for shoppin'. But then again, I have a super duper crave for going on a Shoppin' Spree. But I know I can't just do that, I'll definately feel guilty for spending time shoppin' rather than muggin'. Hah.

Think marilyn's right. All girls wanna be treated like a Princess. Maybe because girls watch too many fairy tales when they are young. Just like me. I like Cinderella the best. Hahaha.

Blahs. Okaes. Time to mug. (:

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Have a sudden urge to blog. Hehs. Booked my whole Monday for Pub Co, but our outing is postponed to Thurs. Awww. I guess I still feel have a tiny little bit of sadness inside. But I guess I have to live with it. Things can't always go my way all the time, can it? Mmmm. Meeting s09-ers later for a meal at Seoul (: Kinda looking forward to it.. cos we've been studying so much together, Where's the FUN peeps? We're gonna have a gr8 time. But Char's not going.. Hai, don't know why I miss her. She'd better not see this. Hahaha.

Woke up this morning. Thought about alot of things. Feel that I have alot of expectations of myself and of the people around me. And because of that, I tend to be disappointed quite often. Overall I'm a happy person. (: But my mood can be pretty unpredictable. Not moodswings. But more like the mood inside me. I tend not to show my disappointment even if I am disappointed. Ha. My friends tell me that the expectations of guys are too many and that I'm a difficult person to please. I know I have alot of expectations. But I don't think they're that difficult to achieve, right? People say Virgos are Perfectionist. I'm starting to believe that I'm one too!

You see. I like guys that are super gentlemen and that treat me special with RESPECT. I like to be treated like a Princess.. (: Very fairytale right? Haha. I like people to listen to what I have to say. To say my peace! Well, there's only a few guys that talk and make my heart melt. Heehs. Now I know why my friends say that I have very high expectations. Starting to realize that maybe.. I do.

I think I better start muggin'. Before I go out and forget what the word "MUG" means. Hahaha.

-Mel
-loves
Sunday, June 04, 2006

*Dreams*--> I miss ya honey... :)
-loves

*Dreams*--> Canon in D makes me cry! :( Read Su's & 6th SC's Blog. The recent post made tears roll down my eyes. I'm so proud, so proud of 6th Council. Yeah. My life in PJC could've never been complete without them! Every single memory will remain instilled in my mind & heart. <3

Pub Co Outing tmr is cancelled! :( Was kinda disappointed just now because I was super looking forward to it. But I think thurs would be a better day, cos after that we can go for Council Chalet! (: Yeps. Looking forward to Thurs. 6th Council is gonna have a BLAST. I mean BLAST!

Special thanks to my bestie Ms. Levin Sim Henglian for her care & concern for me last night. I had really bad abdominal pains last night, it was so much like the ones that I had when I had food poisoning last year. It hurt so bad that I cried really bad. :( Daddy insisted I went to the hospital but I really didn't want to go cos' I knew the bills were going to be super ex. So instead, I took all the pills the hospital gave me for Food poisoning last year. And miraculously, it worked! Woohoo!! (:

All I want is for you to understand. But sometimes I know that's hard enough. I guess things are just really complicated right now. Time and time again, I'm disappointed. Maybe its just me? Or are things really as they seem?

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*-->

I get a feeling I can't explain
whenever your eyes meet mine
My heart spins in circles
and I lose all space and time
And now that we're standing face to face
somethiing tells me it's gonna be OK
that I'm ready to fall in love tonight
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever
but baby i'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
I know you've been watching
choosing the moment
I've been dreaming of that day
no one before you has gotten to me this way
And now that we're standing face to face
something that I need to say
and I'm ready to fall in love tonite
ready to hold my heart open wide
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
Nothing is certain
this I know
wherever we're heading
I'm ready to go
I can't promise forever but baby I'll try
cuz I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
yes I'm ready to fall in love tonight
-loves
Saturday, June 03, 2006

*Dreams*--> Mmm. Going to Sentosa with Pub Co on Monday! Ooo man. Looking forward to it. (: Hope nothing goes wrong. Heehs. Thought of all the memories in Council esp. in Pub Co & I feel I haven't done enough. Seriously. Remember doing those poster where I had to edit them like 10 over times. + those videos that me & Qi did together, then we'll look at my laptop screen saying "What do you think?". Hahahaha. Funny. + painting banner with Ser & Eunice, I remember how much i used to whine at them whenever paint got on me. Yeah. And handpainting with Su, Xin, CJ and Qi - The pj flags. Lol. One hand of mine was white, One hand of mine was Red. Mix it all together and I get pink! Heehs. (:

Right. Now I feel so much like crying..

-Mel
-loves
Friday, June 02, 2006

*Dreams*--> I really hate how people insult council. What we're looking for is constructive criticism. As if insults would improve the matter in anyway. It just shows how childish & immature someone is. All they know how to say is "Council Sucks." and all that crap. Do you think that is constructive? It's just something childish.

Disappointed man.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Today was rather productive cos I did study when I came home. Hehs. But had alot of distractions in school. Don't ask why! But it's Lynn's Happy day! I'm happy for her too. Heh-hehs. Me, Lynn & Mag walked out of college singing... " Happy, Shalalala, It's so nice to be happy, Shalalala, Everybody should be Happy, Shalalala..." Lol. Actually I'm not that happy either, but just contented. Yups. ((:

Right. Have tuition 4 times this week. Finish 2 times. Left with Tomorrow & Sat. Oh man. Stress Stress. I'm seriously Stressed. So far, I've completed Chem Eqm, Ionic Eqm & Reaction Kinetics. Finishing Energetics! Hmmm. 4 Chaps in a week? Is that good? Haha. No! Going to rush through organic Chem in 3-4 days. So I'm revising Econs & Organic Chem & Group 2 next week!

Mmm. Grad Night Meeting tmr. Hmm. Haven't had meeting since don't know when. Don't know what to tell my mentee either. Haha. Well, we'll see whatever comes to mind, yup? Meeting Xiaoyan & Levin tmr. Wooohooo!! Looking forward to tmr. (:

To 6th Council : Don't think about what others have to say! We should take the criticisms constructively as feedback, not insults. Those insults should mean nothing to us! What's important is how much we've learnt during our whole term, how much passion & effort we've seen from each other. Because it would be just bullshit to say that we didn't do anything at all. I'm so proud of 6th Council & proud to have seen how much we've grown throughout our term. We've forged so many friendships & created so many memories that I don't think I'll ever forget this lifetime. U guys are loved! ((:

"Honeys?"

-Mel
-loves
PEACE-OUT





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x New Gallaz Shoe
x get in 6th Sc
x New Digi Cam
x New Crumpler Bag
x 3G phone
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x Driving License
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