its STRONGER than DEATH


Sunday, April 30, 2006

*Dreams*--> Tomorrow is a holiday! Yeay! (: Heehs. The radio said it right. There are alot of long weekends this year. The ones who benefit most r NS guys. Hahaha. (:

Yup. Motivation: STUDY.STUDY.STUDY

U are the right match.

-Mel
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*Dreams*--> Been really tired these few days. Heehs. So even if I studied, I don't think anything got in! I'm serious! Slept through the whole night on Thurs even though the plan was to watch West Side Story.

Yesterday. Shortest day of the week. Finally had that lunch with Jieshi. Siam Kitchen in Lot 1 closed down. *Sad. We ended up eating Macs. Quite funny man. Had quite a long chat with her. Rushed back to school to catch the tennis match with AJC. I always feel so excited watching matches. Loads of councillors were down, Lynn, Fel & Ying were sitting with me. Haha. We support Gif. Thou he lost, think he gave his best. Three cheers for him! Hurray! Jeff Won! Hahaha. Congrats.

Missed the rugby match, and went for tuition. There was a heavy rain in school but guess what, Lot 1 wasn't even raining then. Weird weather. Ha. Tuition was alright, but I felt a bit distracted, don't know why, that's why got quite a few mistakes while doing work. Heehs. Met Jenny after that at Causeway Pt to eat my Gelare. Waited for Cab to get home and spent time waiting for bus with Jenny outside my house bus stop. Yup. Miss him loads. Glad he enjoys he's army days.

Went for lunch at this Aussie Restaurant called Mad Jacks. Cool man. Me & Chenjie thought the food was alright. Then went for tuition. Heehs. Today's lesson was enlightening, so I was quite satisfied. (: Went to meet Char to go to town to get some stuff then met Yixin to go the church. We didn't know it was Youth Service. Guess it's fate I guess. Heehs.

I'm seriously lagging behind. I expect myself to do so much, yet I only started on a bit. I gotta re-strategize man. And do well. Goodness. A levels are in 5 Months. Goodness. I'm scared. Really Scared. May the next few weeks be productive for me, May June Holidays do me good. May I remember God & turn to him whenever I feel tired, stress & helpless during this period of my life.

My classmates R currently in the readings of "Da Vinci's Code" & "The five people you meet in heaven".. Hmm. Yet to read the Da Vinci's Code yet. The movie's coming out. Hurray! Hahaha.
The five people you meet in heaven is enlightening I must say.

"Popstar" is nice show. Starring Aaron Carter. It's just like a fairy tale. (:

U're the only one that can make me fly! (:

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, April 27, 2006

*Dreams*--> (: I'm feeling better.

Chenjie sent me a forwarded message : Best moments in life...

1. Falling in love
2. Laughing till your stomach hurts
3. Enjoying a ride down the country side
4. Listening to your favorite song on the radio
5. Going to sleep listening to the rain pouring outside
6. Getting out of the shower and wrapping yourself with a warm, fuzzy towel
7. Passing your final exams with good grades
8. Being a part of an interesting conversation
9. Finding some money in some old pants
10. Laughing at yourself
11. Sharing a wonderful dinner with all your friends
12. Laughing without a reason
13. "Accidentally" hearing someone say somthing good about you
14. Watching the sunset
15. Listening to a song that reminds you of an important person in your life
16. Receiving or giving your first kiss
17. Feeling this buzz in your body when seeing this "special" someone
18. Having a great time with your friends
19. Seeing the one you love happy
20. Wearing the shirt of a person you love and smelling his/her perfume
21. Visiting an old friend of yours and remembering great memories
22. Hearing someone telling you "I LOVE YOU"

This list is so true lah. But in my list, I'll add something, My no. 1 will be : Whenever I'm with you... (:

I'm so happy cos I think I did quite well for Chem Eqm test. (: Hees. When I found out I got 7.5/10, I was quite satisfied, but then again I think I made alot of careless mistakes. Heh Heh.

The first thought was to tell you. Ain't that weird?

-Mel (:
-loves
Wednesday, April 26, 2006

*Dreams*--> I think I'm going to break down. Yesterday I could study hard for my Chem Eqm test & Do maths. Today, I seem so tired, So distracted. So many things to do, so little time. Don't they know how stress we are? We're JC students no doubt, we're suppose to manage our time. But hello. We finish school like in the afternoon & there's not much time to finish up stuff. Goodness. Or is it just me? Am I expecting too much of myself? I'm aiming to finish Chem & Math TYS by Midyears. I don't know. Maybe I should change my strategy. Maybe I should change my tactics.

Maybe I might just will..

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Just watched American Idol. The theme is "Classic Love Song", guest starring Andrea Bochelli. I felt that most of the performances were really good. Chris & Taylor's performance drove me to tears. Then I suddenly felt so emotional after eyes and continued to cry. Hais. Maybe I really cry over EVERYTHING as Qi always says...

-EMO Mel
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*Dreams*--> Wednesday! Hahaha finished school at 12.30! Yeay! (: I love Weds. Didn't have Gm today. Gms' are getting lesser and lesser these few weeks. Guess Our council duties are slowly vanishing. School was quite happen-ing because the J1s set up this Bazaar. I was kinda restless so went to the library to Study while waiting for Qi. Slept in the library quite abit. *Heh Heh*. We went to eat Suki Sushi together with Song hoe. Hahaha. It was so fun & entertaining lah! One Conclusion : Qi is a goon! Lunch was really nice. (: Hees. Me & that Goon went to the Bank after that & I was such a super BONGBONG cos I didn't really know how to work the machine! I wanted to transfer funds lah, but it was the first time I ever did it, so I was kinda blur!! BONGBONG me!!

Aw. I thought about that night when Me, Su, Xin, Jie & Qi went to see the sunrise. We did so many crazy things that morning that I'll never forget. Hahaha. Our heart-to-heart talk. And that breakfast that cost only less than $2 but made xin, me & Jie 's Tummy to Rumble! Haha. We were whining and screaming our way back. Lols. Miss those fun times.

I'll really miss Council! :(

Thanks to CJ for that heart-to-heart talk with me. It made me think alot. I guess what you said made sense. (: Jiemeis....

-Mel
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

*Dreams*--> Chem Eqm test tomorrow. Hope i do well. Just finish Studying. However, yet to finish up TYS. Goodness. I wanna complete TYS before Mid-years. I did it for Common Test, no excuse why I can't do the same for Mid-years. (:

I hope I can do well. Pray that I will be studying alot more now & less lethargic too. Heehs.

-Determined Mel
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*Dreams*--> Ahhh. Went to watch PJC vs Innova JC today. I think it was a close match. Both teams made mistakes, both teams have good strengths. Pj lost. But I think ultimately, I believe that all of them are winners. I really think they put up a good fight. The intensity in the court was deep, my heart was beating so fast. Ahhh. Good game. Good game. Councillors and the rest of the pioneers started going "PJ PJ PJ, Whoosh Whoosh Whoosh!!" Hees. No more voice already lah! I wan my honey water!! I wanna play volley! I miss playing in competitions.

School today was alright. Not as tired. Maybe bcos I slept early yesterday! Kk, off the studying!

*Touched*

Happy Birthday my Dearest Charchar. (: Smiles.

-Mel (:
-loves
Monday, April 24, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmmm. chewing on my Van Houten's Choco Bar! - Fruit & Nuts. Haha. Jason like the Hazel Nuts. Remember surprising him last time with it. Yummy-fied man! :) Just finish doing Maths Work. I'm so Tired that I can't absorb anything I study. How? Daniel thinks I should rest.. SHould i??

Mel
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*Dreams*--> Just talked to Fel on e phone. Haha. Had a laughing feat. Wahahaha. Can't take it. Chatting with Daniel online too. Lols. Humorous man!!

Today's rain was super heavy! And super windy! Felt like there was a typhoon. Heehs. Because of that, the "Support Team PJC" board was wrecked. Paper kept flying around.. So we had a hard time picking them up. Haha. Songhoe also helped. Because of this, all his paper flew away. It was super comical looking at how goofy he is. *Laughs Laughs Laughs*..

PE was alright. But feel tired thou. Yups. Alrighties. Needa be a good girl & Study! Take care y'all! (:

-Mel (:
-loves
Sunday, April 23, 2006

*Dreams*--> Qi is a GOON! Hahahaha. no lah. I'm kidding. I'm feeling guilty cos I haven't been studying as much as I used to. *Dieeess... I'm feeling so bad. :( Hmmmm... Celest is right. I'm a notti girl. Ahhh!!!

"From today onwards, Mel is Determined to work hard, to be Disciplined and to Strive for the best...MUG MUG MUG MUG MUG!!! Wahh!!..."

-Mel
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*Dreams*-->

6th Council will be stepping down soon. :( Oh man. 6th Council Rocks. I've never experienced anything like what I experienced in Council. Heh. Will really miss them. Through the past year, those super long Gms, Rehearsals, clearing up, Sai-kang-ing, & those events that seem to be just a day but got us planning for weeks or even months. Mmmm. All the times we had fun together, Mass-dancing, Fun-Dancing, Cheering, making a fool out of ourselves, those times are simply uncountable cos there were just too many of them. We're kinda lame sometimes but guess its because we're de-stressing. Hahahaha. Thinking back long ago during our investiture, how many rehearsals we had, practising to sing our Council Song - Calling to serve.

"...Today is the day, We've taken our place, It's special beyond words can say, A chance of a lifetime, A gift that life blessed us with, the roads will be rough, and times will be tough, but together we stand as one...we put our will in one voice, and move forth in a heart, hand in hand we will see it through to the end.... So stand up right, today we are stars, together we will shine and never give up, this passion burns with an unceased fire, no matter how tough we are there to face, cause we made up our minds, the path we're gonna take, we'll rise up above, for the calling to serve..."

Ah!! Those times were fun. Haha. Our council camp with Lye! So fun!! It really bonded all of us. All those events. Haha. And that hug we had together. I will really miss 6th Council man!!! (:
Love ya guys!!
-loves
Saturday, April 22, 2006

*Dreams*--> Pondered about the past. The way things used to be. Oh man....Things were like CANDY!
-loves

*Dreams*--> Hmmm. Saturday. Tuition day! We were super blur lah. Me, Lynn & Fel thought that tuition was at 1.30 but we were wrong! We started running from Lot 1. Haha. Tuition was not as fruitful maybe because we were "gan chiong".

Went to Causeway point after that and met Sam! Haha. Sam! Haha. Went to Town after that to meet HL & Ching! Been sucha a long time since I saw them. Went to eat dinner with them. While I was window-shopping, was msg-ing Sam. Man. I feel so bad, cos he wanted to meet me after dinner. :) Nvm, there's always another time yups?

Mmm. wanted to study when I got home, but super tired. Tmr I shall finish Math & Ionic Eqm! (: Yeeps. (:

-Mel

This arrangement sucks.
-loves
Friday, April 21, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hahahahahaha!! Just watched Army Daze. Goodness. Total entertainment. Humour man! (: Then, I imagined Jennyang. Miss him man.

Watched "Take the lead" before tuition today. Cool man. Funky. Reminded me of Coach Carter, the movie has a truely wonderful soundtrack. Amazing. Heehs. Anyways, tuition was as usual - Enlightening.

Friday is always a slack day. What can i say?

[Still grieved. Still can't think things through...]

-Mel
-loves
Thursday, April 20, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmmm. Didn't go to school today. Kinda miss school. Imagine when I graduate! Hahaha. Pondered about life today. Haha. Don't know why that when people grow older, they think too much! That's why kids are so carefree. Heehs.

Ever wondered what happen to those people 10 years ago? People walk in and out of your lives everyday. But no matter what, all of them have created an impact in one way or another, be it directly or indirectly. Or maybe an action that you did, have made an impact to theirs, whether you know or not. Life goes by so fast, in a split of a few years seem like just a few days that went pass. Life can be so unpredictable. This teaches me to cherish all that's around me, which includes the memories created, life experiences and lessons that we've learnt to make us a stronger person.

Ever wondered what is love? It's a feeling no doubt. But ever wondered the impact that love creates? It can make someone superbly happy and yet cause another to end up in suicide. Love is such a strong force...

There are certain things that I can never comprehend.

I'll never forget that sight in my mind..

- Mel
-loves
Wednesday, April 19, 2006

*Dreams*--> One word: Tired. Very Very tired. Just got home. Today has been a long day thou end school early today. Painted the "Team PJC" Banner after that. Haha. Lack of manpower man. But it was alright I guess. Weisheng & Ser had to go to some Pre-U-sem meeting & I think Qi had to go to CMPB with Cj for something. In the end, it was left with Me & Eunice! Haha. Weisheng, Yixin & Ser came later. Wanna thank Amanda & her netball friend + Qiyun for popping by awhile to help. Thanks loads. (: Haha. Half way painting, I went to catch the Tennis Tournament played by our Tennis Boys. Oh man. It was super duper exciting. I don't really understand Tennis, but finally after today's match, there is quite a good improvement to my knowledge.

To the Tennis Boys, Jiayou Jiayou for the rest of your matches. I think you guys really gave it your All. No matter win or lose, you are all winning Pioneers! Don't give up! (:
Cheered quite abit with the councillors! It's been quite awhile since we cheered together. It made me miss Orientation Days. Always think that the Council is super powerful when it comes to Cheering. We can bring the house down man!! (: Cool.

Continued to paint the banner with Weisheng til around 5.30, and was late for Gm! Haha. I had to sit on the floor cos there were no more chairs left! :( Felt that today's Gm was super enthu, we began cheering and being our hyped up selfs again! Ended Gm with the college creed and cheers! Haha. Kinda funny but it was fun. Mr. Tong mentioned that we would be stepping down in a month's time. Oh man, when we were doing the creed, I almost cried. I'm gonna miss the 6th Council so much. I still recall those days during our elects camp when we woke up at 6am to fall in and sing our national anthem, pledge, college song & creed. Then we ran the canal together. Those days are unforgettable. I thought alot just now, about the council song, a vow we made, and everything we have been through together. From investiture to planning days & Orientation. Another moment I can never forget is when alot of us teared during Orientation, we had a group hug which till now come to think of it can make me tear once more. We share this special bond. (: I really love 6th Council. I'm really gonna miss 6th Council. And it will be an everlasting memory in my mind.

I painted my last banner today. I'm gonna miss Pub Co. :( I love Pub Co.

Went to tuition at 7 after meeting. Was enlightened by Organic Chem and Mr. Chan's humorous way of teaching.

Now. Sitting here. Reminiscing. Thinking Alot. About Studies. About Council. About you.

[Thinking alot about us. I think I'm drowning. I don't like this feeling. I'm feeling super emotional]

- Emo Mel

Tell me that this will last forever. Tell me it won't just end here. I wish I could photograph the moments I choose to stay in forever.
-loves
Tuesday, April 18, 2006

*Dreams*--> Sad. No one understands. :( Can you?
-loves

*Dreams*--> Not in my best of moods. Heh. So it's best advice not to piss me off. Yups. Feel like a Bomb now, if you trigger me, i'll blow!!! I'm serious. Okaes, maybe not blow but feeling really emo right now. Ha. Suddenly miss alot of people... Hi 5!! Yups. The 4 of them!! Thou I do see them in school but everyone's so busy & stressed with Studies & our own things, hope to have a nice chat together sometime soon! These few weeks have been hectic, real hectic that it scares me! J2 life is scary!! Haha. Right.

Weds. (: I love.

I miss your voice.

-Mel
-loves
Monday, April 17, 2006

*Dreams*--> Arghs!!! Econs MCQ test. I'm so worried I'm going to fail! :( I'm so tired that things may not get into my head. Ah!!!
-loves

*Dreams*--> Yups. I'm enlightened once more. :)

Felt really "no mood" to go to school today cos Mondays are the longest days. But I still ended up going. Maths was alright. Econs.. As usual, a bit boring. Haha. But Chem Lecture was good cos I really understood it. Thanks Mr. Tong. Compared to the last lecture by Mrs. Chan where I went out of Lt 3 saying.. "Huhhsss??" to my myself. Yups. Went for Gp at the Arcadia after that and had a blast. Fel Tay & Ying were presenting on Music. So cool lahs. Generation gap between us & Wahahahabb Man!! I do appreciate Oldies Music but do they appreciate our kind of music? As usual saying Linkin Park is noisy! Hahaha. Mans. We had a break aft that & we started taking retarded pictures. Haha. Ying, Char, Lynn, Kris & Jas all carry e same kinda of Crumpler! Outcast me & Fel althou I carry my lovable crumpler too! Kinda felt like we were doing a crumpler commercial. Made me laugh my head off. Hahaha. Look below...


Them with their beautiful bags. Haha. This shot is super cool.


I'm proud of my unique Crumpler bag okay!! Haha. They are outcasting me!!! Argh!!


Crumpler Bags & 1 Ripcurl. Hahaha..

s09-ers are fun man!! Yeahs! (: Love them! :)PE was super siong cos Mrs. Loh wasnt around. Mrs. Wee took over and my legs started to wobble with her constant physical conditioning. Hmmm. My legs still hurt. Owws..

Grad Night tables are getting to be more & more. Oh man!! I'm so happy! (: Heehs.

I thought it was hard enough whenever I see your back walking away from me. However, I just realized it's more difficult walking away from you and me trying not to look back at you although in the end, i still do. It's difficult. Don't like to walk away from you.

-Mel
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Sunday, April 16, 2006

*Dreams*--> Okaes. I'm not sad anymore cos I ate chocolates. Thou I sometimes don't believe that Chocolates can make people happy. But I gave it a try and I started smiling at myself while doing my Chemical Equilibrium TYS. Yupp. Chem Equilibrium drove me nuts. I totally understand the chapter but only can do some questions, think I should read through my tuition notes again. Hmmm. Nvm Mel. Jiayou! (:

Still kinda disappointed but nvm lahs. Don't wanna think about you.

Chenjie is duh Ultimate Jiemeis! (: Hahaha.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> "I've always thought that I understand you & you understand me. But sometimes there are just so many things around us that keep us apart....I still think that we're meant to be...
-loves

*Dreams*--> Happy Easter! Sing Alleluia, the Lord has risen! He has risen in me Alleluia!

Talked to Jenny early this morning before Church. He's going to camp again tonight. Haha. Guess I'll still miss him. Heehs.

Hmmm. I feel really bad now. :( Oh man. I don't like to face this. I miss you. When you're so much closer to a person, being insensitive is a norm, however being so much closer to that person, shouldn't you be more sensitive so as to spare a thought for their feelings? :( I'm sad.

-Mel
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Saturday, April 15, 2006

*Dreams*--> Holidays go by so fast. Haha. Well, life go by as fast. Yup. It's 6 months to A levels. I know I should put all my focus and concentration to my studies but sometimes I just can't control myself being distracted by things and people around me. Oh man. I needa change. Needa have the determination I used to have. I need motivation too! Maybe I'm just tired of all that I've been through. But I know that I should not give up. Giving up is so not Mel! Hahaha. I like to "bang the wall" as Fel always says.

I feel so enlightened now to a certain extent. :)

Watched Passion of Christ yesterday for the 2nd time. Think I watched it more than that but it was the 2nd time I watched the whole movie. I just couldn't stop tears to roll down my eyes. All the Jesus has been through for us. He is the way, the truth and the life. We'll live by faith & not by sight in him. *Faith*

Going for tuition later. Looking forward to it. Cos I hope to walked out and say "WAH! I finally understand Ionic Equilibrium". Hahahaha. Hopefully lah!

I suddenly called Xin on thursday to tell her I miss her. Haha. I miss J1! We used to spend so much time together in J1. Now everyone's so busy. I don't study at night that much anymore. Don't know why but just feel so tired after school of how much brain juice I use during class. Hahaha. Yups. Miss Xin!

When's my next holiday?

-Mel
-loves
Friday, April 14, 2006

*Dreams*--> I don't wanna waves to wash me away! *Cries. Haha. No lah. Just being lame. Heehees.

Mmmm. Happy Good Friday everyone! Lols. Did Math earlier and Oh man... I need to say this - 3D trigo sucks! Haha. Ms. Lee says that I'm the kind of Math Student that can do everything but 3D trigo. Haha. I'll take that as a compliment.

I love Pioneer! (: Haha. Weird. but yeah True!

Let's Praise the Lord.

-Mel :)
-loves
Thursday, April 13, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hahaha. Long weekend awaits. Woohoo. And there ain't much homework. Yay! Good time for revision. I'm happy today. Really happy! There are currently 59 tables booked for Grad Night! Woohoo. Yeays! Above my expectations. Lols. Yeay!!

Jenny got out of Camp today. Me and Jason travelled a long long way just to pick him up. Haha. I'm happy to see him adjusting real well in his camp. Ha. He was telling me and Jason alot about the lifestyle in camp. Just made me laugh my head off. Really missed him over the past week. So seeing both of them today really made my day! (: Hees. Becos of the long journeys in the cab, can't help but to look at the beautiful sky. Mild clouds surrounding th full moon. It was so pretty! (:

Got a Band 2 for PW. So not satisfied. Haha. I guess its alright. The experience was beneficial and I learnt alot from it. So no regrets. To my PW group, Char, Daniel, Yanshan & Zhufeng. Good job done! Hees. It didn't meet our expectation but it really was a good job done, alright? (:

It's good friday tomorrow & easter sunday is approaching. Haha. Let's praise God!

"for god so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son,that whoever believes in him shall not perished but have eternal life" - john 3:16

-Mel
-loves
Wednesday, April 12, 2006

*Dreams*--> Qi is a Goon! Hahaha. Nvms. I'm just playing. Lols. :)

School is as usual the same. Heehs. Wednesdays & Fridays are always the most "slack". Haha. Didn't have Council Meeting today but hanged out in school for awhile with the girls to watch the choir & dance performances. This was kinda the last performance for J2 dancers & choir peeps so I guess it meant alot to them. :) Yupp. The performance was alright. The thought of us J2s leaving the college in 7 months give me a sentimental feeling deep down. I've had so many memories in the college over the past year & I would never forget them. (: Heehs. College life will always be a beautiful memory. :)

I felt so dumb today. Hahaha. Cos I was eating instant mee and there was no hot water in the cooler. Tried to get some from the canteen stalls but no one had hot water. Ha. Being so desperate for hot water, the auntie gave me Miso Soup to add in to my instant mee. The taste was so utterly weird. Lols. It gave me a big laugh I tell you!

Was telling Khalis & Alvin today that being an officer in the army is great. My reason was because they could have a sword wedding. Hahaha. :) Romantic right? Den they started laughing at me! :( Man!!!

I miss you once more.

-Mel
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006

*Dreams*--> Oh man. Just came back from Family Dinner. Can't stand these kind of dinners bcos I think it compromises much of my Studying time. Aw. I feel super stressed. Bcos I really wanna do well for Mid-years & ultimately my A levels. I need to get back that "Kiasu" Mentality of Studying that I used to have. God, please help me! I need motivation. I can't play. (Not that I'm playing so much too) I needa Study. I feel stressed. I am stressed. Weisheng says my face shows that "stressed-look". Die. Mans. Goodness. Half-way during dinner, Jenny called. Conferenced together with Jason for around 20 mins or so. I'm quite happy that he's doing alright there. (: Yups. Should be meeting up for dinner this week or so. I miss them loads!

Had that long chat with Sam today after school. Oh man. Yupp. I really wished he was still in our class. Now, it seems like we have to put in effort to catch up & chat. (: Well, then again, he made me realize alot of things. He always has the "guy's point of view" thing. Hahaha. He's a friend that means alot. Awww. Hahaha.

Grad Night payment today was expected. So yeahs. I just have alot of fun writing the receipts. Hahahas. Lame right? Haha. My table is booked. Woohoo. Sitting with ying, xin, CJ, yen shuang, yin peng, Garnrern, songhoe, zhisen & Qi. Haha. I bet I'll have gr8 fun! (:

I really hope I can buck up. I don't want to be a slacker. I don't want people to worry about me. I don't want to be constantly reminded to study and I don't want people keeping a lookout for me all the time. I wanna be Ms. Independant! Thou I know that I do rely on my close friends alot, but I don't want them to worry about me. (:

To J2 peeps. Jiayou Okaes? Its only another 28 weeks to go. We can do it. I believe. I can. Confirm! (: Hees. Take care.

Miss you.

-Mel
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Monday, April 10, 2006

*Dreams*--> I made Mash Potatoes today for dinner. Haha. I love making Mash Potatoes. Made them during Council Chalet and for New Year Supper with Hi 5. Haha. Bet they must love my Mash Potatoes eh guys? (: Haha. Ooops.

Oh man. I feel super dumb crying over something dumb. Haha. Ooops. Feel very bad to Char.

I trying to go back to my "Kiasu-Studying"-self again. Jiayou! Mans. Only could talk to Sam awhile today. Wanna have a long chat with him. It's been a while. I miss Jieshi too. :(

I Miss you...

-Mel :)
-loves
Sunday, April 09, 2006

*Dreams*--> Feeling the Stress. I wanna do well for A's! Yeays. Mel - jiayou! (: Hahaha.

Miss you.

-Mel
-loves

*Dreams*--> Someone said that maybe I'm last on the list, or maybe somewhere in the middle. Well, at least I am on the list.

Sunday. Intending to study. Jiayou! (:

I miss you.

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, April 08, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hmmm. Today was fun. Yeps. Jenny called me from Camp. So relieved that everything's well. Hope they don't ill-treat him. (: Went to school to find out more about what to do after A levels - University! (: Haha. Oh man. I can't believe i'm so old. University?? Seem so far yet so near. Lols. I was quite bored but after seeing familiar faces felt kind of excited. Thanks to Mr. Yeo for his care and concern. Appreciate it! (: Yups. Rushed to tuition with Chenjie, Lynn & Fel. Tuition was great! Feel so enlightened after going to Mr. Chan's tuition. He's so funny lah! I remember telling Qi last week how "comical" he is. Lols. Hmm. Suddenly miss Sam alot these few days. Felt like I haven't talked to him in ages! Hais. Must really catch up man. Yups.

-Mel
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Friday, April 07, 2006

*Dreams*--> Thank God Its Friday! (: Haha. Friday is the slackest day of the week becos technically I'm going to school just for 1hr of Econs. Ha. Had a gr8 time chatting with Char in d afternoon. Heehs. Den went to tuition. Totally enjoyed tuition. I think Mr. Chan teachs really well. Haha. Hoping to get an A for Chem too! (: Hopefully lah.. Haha.

Jenny didn't msg me at all. He went in today. Wonder how's everything over there. :( Miss him already. Worried too. God Bless him!!

Settled everything I wanted to settle so I'm quite relieved. Now all I wanna do is focus focus focus! Jiayou Mel! (:

-Mel
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Thursday, April 06, 2006

*Dreams*--> Just watched "The Family Stone". Oh man. I love it. Cried alot thou. Hees. Emotional me. Well well, it made me miss Christmas alot. I love Christmas. (: Listening to "O come all ye' Faithful". Yups. Miss Christmas. While I was watching, thought alot about Christmas memories & tears started to roll down my eyes. Christmas is the special time which hold a very special place in my heart. Aw. The show was great. (:

Love s09. Had PE today & we did basketball suicides. Haha. I'm totally impressed with how enthu my class is. Continue to rock on yers? (: Yups. I think our teachers are nice too. Lols. Cos they seem to be able to "handle" us. Hees.

Miss you. Miss you. Miss you. Add love in that too. Hahaha. I'm so frustrated about something and I can't seem to figure out why! Aww man! :( *Confused*

To Jenny - Take care of yourself okaes? Will miss yah! (:

-Mel

~*~Christmas Time~*~
~*~Joy to the World~*~
~*~Peace~*~Love~*~
-loves
Wednesday, April 05, 2006

*Dreams*--> Officially missing you. Today just seem so "not right". For some reason or another, I can't figure out why I can't seem to wear a smile on my face. :( Thinking alot about alot of stuff. Worried about certain things. Maybe its time for me to let loose. And to think less. Haa.

Jenny's going ndu on Friday and I think yesterday was the last day that I would see him before he goes in. Aw man. I'll probably miss him alot. I depend on him so much lah!! Gosh. Yup, would miss him alot!

Alvin is great. Alvin Rocks. Alvin is my Complement! (: Hees. Feel like I can talk to him about anything! (: Yeeaay!!

-Mel - Don't walk any further. I'm still missing you...
-loves

*Dreams*--> Aw. Finally relieved from all the stress. I had to Re-do all my Common Test papers plus do my homework. Man. I'm feeling J2 life once more after that weeks break after Common Test. I really miss J1. :( Heehs. But yeahs, at least now I have a goal. I have an aim! Hope I can reach it. I believe with perserverance and hard work, I can do it! Yeah!! Jiayou to peeps out there studying for A's! We can do it yoz!

Met Jason today after Studying in school! For the first time since he came out of camp!! (: Happy Happy!! we went to get Jenny's bag then we went to Manhattan Fish Market to eat. Yummy Yummy. Thou the food was good, the service wasn't that satisfactory! Haha, seems like my PW comes to mind! Hah! Yup, as we were leaving the restaurant, I seem to realize how fast time flies, Jenny's going to Army this friday. I remembered being so sad when I found out he had to go to Ndu. Ha, now, 2 days away, I feel even more sad. I'm really going to miss him loads! He's one of my bestest friends. Awww!!

I'm still worried of the worse. I can't seem to put my mind at ease. Maybe after this week everything is alright. Oh yups, Councillors, thanks for your encouragement! (: Jiayou Mel! Jiayou!! (: Hees.

-Mel - True friends never part, maybe in distance but never in heart.
-loves
Monday, April 03, 2006

*Dreams*--> Learnt something today. Time is an illusion. Jenny told me that. Words of Albert Einstein. Haha. Alright, I'm feeling the stress already. I really wanna do well for my A's! Jiayou Jiayou! (:

*Somehow or rather, I feel it. I can't believe I feel this way. I feel assured but then again unsafe in my heart. I feel happy when you're around. Just hope you know that! :) Hees!*

-Mel - Miss ya!
-loves

*Dreams*--> Aw man. If you didn't know, tonight stars are beautiful. I haven't seen so many stars in a very long time. The moon looks super pretty and I just love tonight's scene. Aw man. Love it!!! It made me feel super relieved and relaxed. Jenny came over to teach me Chem, Thanks man! Haha. I feel so bad for making you wait for 3hrs!! Poor you! Hees. When he left on his way out, he shouted: "Mel, look at the stars". My eyes started to glow at how beautiful that scene was, and there was a smile on my face. (: Today is the most relieved day I've had for months. I don't feel a heavy burden on me anymore, and for that, all I want to do is the strive real hard for my A's! Aim: AAB. B for Econs simply because Econs is super duper unpredictable. Ha. Through this difficult period of my life, I want to thank the following : God! (: ,Combined Clique of S09 (Kris, Jas, Ying, Lynn,Mel, Mag, Fel) , Hi 5 (Ying, Qi, Jie, Xin), Councillors (esp. Pub Co & Celeste & Alvin), Jieshi, Henglian, Jason & Jennyang! (: Not forgetting the teachers that supported me through this whole process : Mr. Tong, Ms. Xiao, Ms. Lee, Mdm. Loh, Mr. Chan, Mr. Yap... I feel so grateful. Now I can finally smile and become the happy go lucky person I always am. (:

Jenny's going to Army this Friday. One by one, they go!! Arhh!! Gonna miss 'em.

Looking at the stars reminded me of that night, it reminded me of you. it reminded me of everything!!

-Mel (: Love ya!!
-loves
Sunday, April 02, 2006

*Dreams*--> I fear that the worst might just happen. As I'm writing this, tears are starting to roll down my eyes. I'm so scared. As far as I know that I'm not alone and that there are people that care for me, I just can't stop myself from thinking too much. Aw man. Yesterday, everything kept me from thinking about all my troubles. Well, I have my friends to thank for that -> Fel, Char, Lynn, Jie & Qi. I just pray that everything goes well. I'm worried about everything and really touched for all those hugs and my friends telling me that they'll always be here for me. U guys mean the world to me man.

As I continue thinking, whatever effort I put in may not have paid off. A wise friend once told me that the best is never enough. I drove myself to the brim. Is that enough? I can't stop thinking.

-Mel
-loves
Saturday, April 01, 2006

*Dreams*--> Hees. Happy April Fool's Day! Wanted to play a trick on someone but I didn't know who to play a trick on him..Went to Mr. Charlie Chan tuition! I think it was quite fruitful. Lalala. If all goes well, I would continue it cos I really think its very enriching! After tuition, walked around Lot 1 while waiting to meet Qi. I wanted go to some place near the beach or a quiet place to see the skyline. But thought it was kinda far for Qi. Heehs. So we went to Railway Mall. I've always wanted to go there since like the first day when I was in J1. Lols. Fun fun!! Ate at this nice restaurant for a long long time! Had a good chat. Haha. Had a blast. Hees.. Dinner really kept me from thinking about all my troubles. Thanks to Qi man! (:

-Mel - Yups. Somehow or rather I feel it.
-loves
PEACE-OUT





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x New Gallaz Shoe
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x 3G phone
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